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Should have started this right after.....

Jul 05, 2009 - 0 comments

Had I known then that I was spiraling down to another hellish episode of my Adjustment Disorder and that MedHelp was available for talking to others and being able to record my stress and emotions, I might have been able to keep my outbursts and depression at bay. Oh well...hindsight is a *****, as they say, but better late than never cliche overrules. I look back now, starting from when I lost my job in January, and all of the emotional and physical changes that I went through. The headaches, my back pain, depression, crying over the smallest things, opthalmic (ocular) migraines and so forth. Having more knowledge and understanding now, has made everything so much easier to cope with. One of the biggest frustrations was not knowing WHY I was so frustrated!!

A little understanding....

Jul 05, 2009 - 0 comments

I have had one of the most tumultuous yet blessed weeks! At the beginning of the week, my disorder was at it's height; I was constantly crying, upset about one thing or another, my boyfriend and I were arguing almost daily, my relationship was falling apart, I was depressed beyond words and I was at a loss for what to do to make it all go away. I just wanted to curl up and die. Then I remembered something my doctor told me back in 1999 or so..."You're suffering from acute Adjustment Disorder." Yeah, yeah, yeah. Whatever. I pulled through back then and thought nothing more of the doctor's monotonous words. So, on Thursday morning, I wiped the tears from my eyes and went to the computer to research this so-called Adjustment Disorder. My jaw nearly hit the floor; I was experiencing nearly every symptom listed. I cried again, not from the frustration that had been consuming my every waking moment, but from a joy of now understanding that I can finally attribute my hell to an actual cause AND I was not alone! After talking about it with my significant other, it all made so much sense, more so for me I think, but with understanding comes ways in which to identify my stress and try and hold it at bay before I blow. The last three days have been so relaxing and serene. I've missed this!