Hope you feel better soon! It sounds like you are growing and your husband is not. The situation you are in is difficult and is stressful and stress can make you physically ill. The way you husband behaved was disrespectful to you and irresponsible toward his family. You really need to work something out with him or it will only get worse. My thoughts are with you.
Just a quick note to say hi! Hi Bri, Thanks for the note. Well, I think the reason I don't like going to the doc is because, like you I find it hard to get across what I need to say and I never feel that I am quite heard if you know what I mean There are such a broad range of issues going on with me that it is difficult to say that it is any one thing. I think I would need at least a day to explain it all!! I will keep you posted as to whether I go or whatever. I too am glad to hear that there are others out there living a similar life but hopefully now we can do something about it. Hope to talk to you soon
I know you have concerns about the meds and I can appreciate that. I was the same way in the beginning, ucky meds. It took me a very long time to find the right doctor and get on the right meds that was a part of bringing some stability into my life. You on the other hand are young, so ask yourself if you are willing to live your life the way it is happening now or do you want to bring stability into your life? To bring stability into you life takes action. There is no perfect pill that you can take that cures you instantly, it takes work. You have to want to get life on an even keel so that you can enjoy every day of the rest of your life. I put off getting serious about contolling my illness always thinking that I can do this by myself, but it never worked. Have a good weekend!
I hope that things are going well for you and you are have a good day. You asked how I knew that I had bpd and it was similar to your situation. My ex wife suspected it and my behavior was very erratic, with mood swings, bouts of euhporia and clinical depression for weeks and months at a time, a scrambled brain, not capable of concentating, no friends, etc. I was in denial, not me I do not have that cursed illness, never! I was almost forced to go to a psychaiatrist (one of many) who did not diagnose it. I was treated with wrong medications that made things much worse. It is so important to find the right psych doc or you can really waist a lot of time, money and emotion. I will be glad to share what made a difference and brought stability in my life. God bless you!
Just a quick note to say hi! Hi Bri, usually chicken out myself and might do yet with doc. So I suppose that's part of it too!!! Anyway will keep you informed as to what they say. You sound alot like me though you are alot younger so hopefully you can get on top of things now before you get to my age and have regrets, now is the time for you to do something. Talk to you soon. Bless
Why does your husband think you are bipolar? What is his reasoning for the diagnosis? What are your behavior patterns. Do you make and keep friends? How is your concentration? Have a good day!
Hi Bri2186, Yes! A great psych is a big part of your recovery. I probably saw a dozen psychs before I found my present one. The last time I looked I went off of referrals from persons that I trusted to find a psych experienced in bpd. During our first meeting, I had more questions directed at him than he did to me. So I was interviewing him to make sure I felt he was qualified, and thought I could work with him. You need to do the same. My doc is so kind that when I was in a crisis, he would calm me down over the phone for 30 minutes and not even charge me. You should make it a high priority in your life to find this doc and get a recovery plan started as soon as possible.
Are you bipolar or you are not sure. You profile did not indicate what medical cond you had. Take care
Bri ~ you are very welcome. I'm glad you found this site too. It is a comforting place for me to hang out. You mentioned in your post about going to the doctors. I hope you find a psyc soon. Take a list with you so if you feel like you are going to "bolt" just hand it over to the doc and go from there. I found that notes help me because my memory is so short. I rely on my handy list now. I have been talking with my doc over the phone for the past few days and I have my notes ready for our "session" otherwise I would forget what I need to tell him.
Welcome. Hang in there and keep posting. You are doing great.
~ El :)
Welcome to our community! Just stopping by to say, "Hello" and welcome you to the Heart Rhythm Community. I also wanted to say that I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling "worried." Make your appointment and see what the Dr has to say about your episode last night. We are all here to support you and help however we can:)
~Adrienne (Co-Community Leader)