I've been socially isolated for so long that when my instructor says things like 'great job Lee' I want to run and hug and kiss her for making me feel good about myself again- it's quite alien to me. it's also been really interesting to notice the difference in my mood when I am outside in the sun.Sounds simple and maybe silly but I have heard it can help with depression/anxiety etc (sunlight) and it works for me.Ive even started eating heaps of fresh fruit and am loving it.Once u eat a little, u actually start craving it , same with water-which has quite an effect of my mental state. So what is it u like to do? Any old or unrealized hobbies?I think distraction/diversion is something practical and positive we can do. Even this,here, making new friends and such is a helpful step.Take care!
Hi Ernie :)
Nice to hear from u :) Yeah, still smoking too much. Trying to make it to midday each day before i have a cone or six.It's eleven am now,struggling to make it, trying to distract myself on the PC and ramping up the cigerettes.
Definately have a new addiction- my riding.I literally crave being at the stables.For the first time I have experienced a 'natural high' and I'm hooked.Those endorphins are wonderful things.Since I was little I've always been addicted/obsessd with something, so now I know I have to direct that to something positive.
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Hey Ernie :) How's things? I've now had my second reduction (down to 30mg).Physically, no prob but I think it's screwing with my head. Everything is just making me so depressed and it's great timing cos it's school holidays here, so I'm having to be a 'sane,rational' person around my 5yr old for the next week.
And yes, anything that keeps u off the heroin IS a good thing , I remember telling myself the exact same thing.But I think meth has a time and place and now I'm at the point where I've been off heroin for so so many years,I'm out of the drug scene,so my needs have changed. I want off all drugs now. Funny,I can get meth for my heroin addiction but what can they give me for marijuana addiction (which is proving even harder for me to eradicate)? Struggling.....
Just a quick note to say hi! Yes Ernie, I was on the meth program for many years off and on and it helped me a lot the first years. I encourahe you to keep posting and stay off of all other get high drugs and booze. I made it off meth and hope you can at some point too and benifit from it. Rick
Yeah , I had no idea there was a whole world of internet-accessing addicts! :) It actually does help a little hey , knowing "you're not alone" etc etc.
Has the meth been better for u? How much u on p/day? Years ago , I was on Subutex but literally could not handle the taste and it would make me gag , so unfortunately I got on the meth. Was so young and naive then , had no idea I would still be on the **** 7 years later. Feel like I missed all of my 20's in a drug blur :( I have a big pot problem too but it's funny - if you're an opiate addict , u can get meds for that, but what to do for weed addicts? It's almost a bigger problem for me but there's less help & support out there for it than there is for 'heavier' drugs.
Take care & thanks for the msg :)
Thanks for the invite :)
I'm always paranoid that these forum and chat sites get really 'clique-ee' and no-one will talk to new ppl. Hoping that at least THIS site may be different , so far, so good.
Yeah , so upon the suggestions i found on this site , I've decided to split dose my TA's & made an appnt. with the Dr about my options.Feel like I'm cheating on my doc or something , but I'm going to see another dr for other opinions. Do u have naltrexone in the US , know anythin about it?
Anyway , thanks again :) Take care
Just a quick note to say hi! I just noticed you are from Stoneboro PA,although I'm not quite sure where that is.I am in Pittsburgh PA. Hang in there my friend and keep posting....Kim