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About Me: Female, 56, Miami Beach , FL, member since Jul 2014
Why not. I'm 48 divorced and I have two beautiful children 21 and 13. My son who I can't see is with his dad and stepmother. My daughter is on her own. I see her all the time. For which I'm very grateful for. As millions of people I had a crappy childhood I was out of t
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he house at 14. I survived. Had a very good job. Got married when I was 24 and was pregnant 7 months later. During and after my pregnancy I gained a lot of weight. To be honest I went from my normal 150 to 397lbs. 2 years later I had roux en y gastric bypass surgery. Problem solved. Weight lost. 11 months later I got pregnant again. Gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. Unfortunately for him and my family This was the beginning of my downward spiral. My meds weren't working anymore. Nothing was working the Dr's kept giving me Xanax. Probably to shut me up. My body started shutting down. Anemia, blood transfusions, emergency hysterectomy. My pain was increasing and so was my tolerance level. Which I'm now learning was caused by the surgery too. My body wasn't, couldn't absorb my medication any longer. back than the Dr's weren't aware of the impact this would have on some of us or if they did they sure didn't give any warnings. So after a complicated divorce. We still lived as a married couple for 4 years after. Alcohol, pills and pleading with my dr's for help came a near fatal car accident. Surgeries, treatment centers, disability and homeless shelters. And so many other shameful things. I went from a suburban soccer mom. To homeless and alone. I got though it. I now live alone. my only family are my children. My son who I haven't seen in 1year. And my daughter who I see all the time. So now my new journey begins. Again. Still struggling with absorption issues. But so GRATEFUL!t to be alive, and now on subutex. I know I just wrote a lot, but I think I did it more for myself. I have to remember where I've been so that now I don't do it again.
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emotional health, Chronic Pain, Addiction, opiate addiction, subutex, Pain
Jul 24, 2014
"Hey congrats on the 30 days. That's awesome. About the depression I found that I was mourning my drug of choice. It does get easier. I know you've probably heard that a thousand times, but it's true. I think you said you were heading to..."
Jul 22, 2014
"Your daughter sounds amazing my ex husband has a cousin with down syndrome and she is incredible. One of God's angels. I know how hard it must be struggling through your pain and yet still having to worry about her health problems. You b..."
I don't know what to do. I'm taking my subutext 8mg in the morning and 8 at night. I'm white knuckling it in the afternoon until I take my pm dosage. I don'...
Sunday 7/20 my body is throbbingmy my mind is still spinning. I've been thinking maybe I set my expectations to high on the subutex. I felt like a little kid on Christ...
7/12 6:00pm I'm laying down with my subutex under my tongue. For days it feels like I'm barely hanging on. I'm trying to stay positive, but I think I'm los...
07/14
Hey chicky! Welcome and so glad you found this site. Just thought I'd lend support in the journey we all share. You're not alone sweetie...I haven't experience with subs but many here have. Bless and peace
07/14
Welcome to our community, Lisa! Wanted to leave you a note and let you know we're here for you....you're not alone. I'm a chronic pain person too and chose to get off my meds. You can do it, too!
07/14
I just wanted to drop by to welcome you to the forum. If you want to talk, vent, journal or whatever, there are plenty of folks here would be honored to share their experience & support with you. (For what it's worth, I'm one of them :) Hang in there!
All Good Things Your Way, Annie
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