I was diagnosed with ADD as a young child and also once in my late teens, but for whatever reason nothing was ever done and my parents and teachers even dismissed it. My grades were always awful, homework was always skipped or very late, but my parents always blamed it on me, or my other problems. I was prescribed to Ritalin I believe for a few days until I broke out in hives and stopped taking it. I have seen many Dr's and Psychiatrists in recent years but ADD was not brought up. Throughout the last few years I have been diagnosed with multiple mood disorders, bi polar being the leading one. However, I cannot relate to anything with the bi polar but the sometimes depression and the classic life full of one chaotic event after another. I do not relate to the mania, more so just nervous energy and impulsive behavior. Now, I am 23 and I have dropped out of college twice, moved cities about 6 or 7 times, and feel unable to function anymore. I feel disgusting and alien. It is sooo hard for me to get up and just start the day, shower, brush my teeh, (the supposed SIMPLE stuff) much less go outside and GO somewhere. I find myself struggling with compulsive eating, alcohol, and high sex drive (random promiscuous behavior) and highly emotional. People think I am completely unreliable and untrustworthy, they don't think I can complete anything I start and to tell you the truth I don't feel like I can. But it must not be this hard for everyone else! I am constantly picking at my scalp, shaking my feet, walking in circles, and I feel like I am going crazy. I am desperately trying to take art classes at an Art Institute but am dreading actually sitting still long enough to sit through it and complete assignments. I can't even watch tv without doing something else at the same time, its just too boring. I just want the chance to live life freely like everyone else, but I feel trapped in a mind that never stops. I have VERY vivid dreams and often feel un-rested even after I sleep. I also struggle with "restless leg syndrome" often and nervous energy, my muscles spasm or shake randomly but I blame myself for my addictive past. Some days when I can hardly get out of bed, I have said I am not depressed I am just overwhelmed!!! I'm sorry to write so much but I am desperately needing some answers and some immediate treatment. Trust me, the time its taking to write this is less fun for me than it is for you to read haha! Does this simply sound like ADD gone bad in adulthood because of not being treated? It just seems like its caused way too many problems, I had no idea it could be SO serious untreated! It would be a shock and sadden me greatly if this has been overlooked all this time with all the treatment options available... What is the fastest way you all would suggest I can get treatment and would a regular Physician be able to help me because there is a 2 month wait for all of the Psychiatrists. I am beginning to break down and I just cannot take this tortured way of living anymore. Any advice or relative stories is a prayer answered. It's great to know I am not crazy and I am not alone. I think I'll write a book one day. (There I go again) Please be nice... Thank you.... God Bless