he's been my friend for awhile. we've had this weird thing. I've liked him, and it's come in waves he's liked me.maybe. he's flirted, I guess.
he's nineteen.
I'm a stupid, stupid fifteen year old.
he started kissing me, he started feeling me up. I was really, really scared for some reason. Just something about it scared me. I hated it. I hated being there. I hated him in a flash. He became evil in my eyes and I felt like, mentally, I was falling apart. It was so sudden.
one second, he was just a friend, the second, he was touching me like this?
I can't look at him..think of him the same.
I feel hurt even though, I wasn't..
was I?
when It crosses my mind, I freeze up. I feel really sick and overwhelmed.
even the shirt I had worn, I hid it that day, and when I came across it reccently, I hid it again. today, I forced myself to wear it--get it over with. I didn't understand myself at all.
I've felt extremely uncomfortable all day.
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please help..