You've been to the hospital five times for drug abuse in the past, does that mean you have gone to get checked, or you have been in a residential program?
It sounds to me like without getting into some kind of focused and long-term help, you will use, whether it is whiffing or pills or whatever, and it can't be blamed on the original method of getting high but on your original desire to get high. The only way I've heard of that sticks, for people wanting to get off the user treadmill, is to work on what it was in your psyche that drove you to want to get high. I assume that for some people there is a biological trigger, but for most users who do honest assessment, it is about a psychological need that drove them to use in the first place. In other words, without working on your head you will not solve the problem of always craving to use something, anything. See what kind of program you can find that ties psychological work with the physical work of getting clean.
Just saw a reference to the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-HELP (4357). That might be the next place to call.
THESE TRIPS WERE TAKEN TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM TO GET CHECKED OUT. I WAS WHERE I COULDN'T EVEN WALK STRAIGHT AND EACH TIME I SWORE THAT IT WAS THE LAST TIME. I WAS HOSPITALIZED EACH TIME FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS UNTIL THE DRUGS WORE OUT OF MY SYSTEM AND I'D HAVE NO WALKING TROUBLES.