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Needing support and Prayers

I hope this is the right group for me. I am addicted to Pain killers and using them through iv.Tomorrow I am beginning to recapture, take back my life. I am going to start tapering and go on from there , going to take one step and one day at a time. I want the Lord Jesus Christ back in my life. I want to feel again. I would appreciate everyone's prayers. My name is April and I want to be clean
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Hi , I am reading a comment you wrote last year.  I was wondering how you are 13 months later. ?  I am slowly detoxing now and need prayers .
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Hi April xx i am also at where you are now and am at the moment CT off Codine and other Opiates when i first joined here ( i just stopped the Codine other stuff not long before) I also gave up Alcohol i drank for many reason's but Chronic pain illness, grief and an EX who beat me up but a few, :-(

I am now on 8mg of Valium from a much bigger dose and i have tapered off Hundreds of mgs a day of Oxy's and i did 70mg for 3day's and today i took 60mg. I need to see my DR and dentist tomorrow so i can't jump completely as im already suffering and runs, vomiting , Mentally every where and physical stuff happening. And all the painful ailments i was on Meds for year's are flaring up too. I was on other Benzos as well but CT's off them too. I can't wait to get tomorrow out the way and jump as this is juist drawing out an already painful WD and its getting worse by the hour.

But i am not fighting it that makes it worse and i know this may sound strange but the WD pain and other WD stuff is ok by me as it's a good sign that the healing has started. I know as it's happening today going from bearable to Awful then i just let it ride. But i have gone for a walk each night so far and i just came back from one now but i didn't manage to walk tto my push to the limit for now point.

But thats ok at least i did it and that's what counts. A big HUG and welcome hun xxx We can BOTH do this i know we can there is gonna be times when it feels impossible BUT it will pass, each withdrawal i've been through, and it's many due to all the Medication i've been on for year's. And then the Hospital IV drugs in to me for week's every couple of months then sending me home with no help and i go through it ALL again.

But i havent allowed my DR in my home as they will send me back there and i am NOT going and i am NOT taking any more drugs the DR's want to push into me? I went over a year in agony and took NO PILLS and i just rode it out, althiugh its wearing you get to a place were you can just lay there and go to sleep through it sometimes. And other times the pain knocks you out anyway!! ha! ha! ha! I laugh at myself when ever i can and make light of things and of course i feel like i can't do it no more like everyone else.

But having been pill free before the Hospital IV's them back in and i ended up on more pills than before until i CT'd off the others and am where i am now. I was much happier just rolling with the pain and if i had to lay down i did. But the same as now i still got the reasons i was given them for but they don't help at all. And they just add to the problems and ALL the super strong ones only made me feel a bit drowsy for an hour or 2 than of ir all went again?

So its not like i got high on anything no relief and year's of being addicted then getting myself off and put on the same ones +more? I am really wanting to do this and fight as hard as i can. Its no good trying to fight the WD but what i mean is if i can do something never mind the pain or what ever i do it and im glad i did as thats another positive thing i achived. :-) Hope to catch up with you soon Sweet heart Love HUG!!! :-D Tswana <3 xxxx PS I will add you to my prayers xxx <3
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You are in my thoughts and prayers! Congratulations on deciding to taper!!!

YOU CAN DO IT!

SLOW & STEADY WINS THE RACE!!
I'm rooting for u!
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