Though you may have had something to do with your partners relapse, you were not aware of how your actions could take you both down. Your partner has the responsibility of being honest with your about his disease/ condition. It is his responsibility to go to AA, NA, and have a sponsor from one of these groups, or an Addictions Therapist that he sees regularly and calls when he needs help to avoid the temptation of accepting, or seeking mood altering substances. It sounds like he's in denial as to what he needs to do to keep him clean and sober.for the long run, and that's not your fault. It sounds like his Mom is helping him to stay clean and sober, and i think you need to talk openly with her about the problems. Honestly is definitely the best policy when dealing with addiction. Hopefully this will result in him going to rehab to gain a foothold on his sobriety. It is your job to let him know that there is no other choice for him but to go for Relapse Prevention Treatment, if he's going to be part of your life, and your children's lives. If he is able to care enough, he will, if he's not, he will fall until such a time that he can be honest with himself. If you intend to be with him after he's again clean and sober, you have to learn how not to enable him. If you're not strong enough to stay strong and committed to doing what it takes to be a good influence, you need to walk away from him. Enablers are an addicts worse nightmare and a cause of continued addiction. As an addict, i can tell you that an addict in recovery will never thank an enabler for making it easy for them to use. Quite the opposite, they will more likely blame you for making it easy for them. I'm sorry that you're facing bankruptcy. Please be strong, you will recover from this. I think a 3 months rehab might be the best option if it's at all possible. My husband and myself are both addicts who got clean and sober together back in '99. We both agreed that if either of us relapsed, we would willingly go to a 3 month Relapse Prevention Rehab... In our case, it was my husband that relapsed, in much the same way as your partner relapsed. We had invited my mother to live with us in her golden years, and he managed to take her oxy's behind her back. When he used the oxy's he acted out as a Paranoid Schitzophrenic and so I had to first have him committed into a Psychiatric Ward for 72 hours. He ended up staying there for a few weeks, to get his medication schedule straight. He was put on Seroquel to help him sleep. Part of the relapse was him looking for a way to deal with lack of sleep. He's on seroquel to this day to help him stay on a healthy sleep schedule. I actually also take Seroquel to sleep at night. It's amazing how much sleep deprivation affects an addict. So first things first. Sleeping properly is a good place to start for an addict. He went to the Relapse Prevention program. Take time apart now, doing the right things, learning what you need to know, and how to carry out your role, and you can both weather this storm. Together or apart. You will both get over this with the right help. He needs to continue to talk to an Addictions Therapist regularly as a sponsor, as well as ideally attended an AA NA group (a free, not for profit system that works for thousands, if not millions of addicts since it's inception.). You don't need an addict too lazy to do the work in your life. So allow yourself to have high expectations. He's gotten clean and sober before, he can do it again. I'm here anytime you need to talk.
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Many of us on this site are living with an addicted loved one on a daily basis. We have lived and feel your pain acutely for a very long time. My loved one is my son who has hit a 9 month clean mark after being addicted to opiates for over 5 years. This is a path we have walked with him and if he had not been my beloved son, I would have given up the fight about 2 years in. The financial toll, though very heavy, was inconsequential compared to the emotional and mental agony of living through the addiction. And now, even though he is clean , I live every day knowing his sobriety could be gone in a heartbeat.
I tell you my situation because I want you to have a perspective on what a long, hard path it becomes.
My recommendation to you is to separate with love. Tell him you can not live in a relationship with an addiction and that he needs to go get the support he needs to clean up and he needs to do it away from your home. You have a child. Your responsibility is to your child first and yourself next. Period. No other discussion.
This man is not equipped to be in a healthy relationship until he has been able to stay clean for at least a year. My son has 9 months clean and I can tell you he is not ready for the complexities of a relationship yet.
If you know his mother well, tell her that you can't live with him under his current addiction. It sounds as if she already knows he has a serious problem so she won't be surprised to hear that you have to prioritize your life around your child.
It also sounds as if he may be able to go back to his parents home which should make the break up easier on your heart (because he won't be left homeless).
If you think you still llove him I know it won't be easy. but know this: addicts can't participate in a healthy relationship. They use whoever they can use to keep the game going.
Tell him now that you are DONE. And mean it! Tell him to take his things and leave and don't let your sweet heart back down.
If I am being really honest and giving you my best advice and support, I would tell you to RUN AND DO NOT LOOK BACK.
Go live your life and recover from this situation. You deserve better for yourself and your child.