An observation

[Mikeinthesouth]

First  off I would like to say  hello to all of my friends here. I have not gone away I have been peeking in from time to time to see how you guys are doing. I was looking around at the percetage of addicts that stay clean after detox for long term and all I could find was that one to ten percent stay clean which is very low. I imagine the other nintey if that have to die in their addiction. It is so sad to think of this and I pray I can grab hold for long term one of these days and actually get some time under my belt without the affliction of addiction wearing so heavy on my head that it wins every time. I love my daughters and they are my reason for hanging on this long and not succuming 100% to this addiction. A few of you guys have been able to kick their habit fully and you know who I am refering to and I applaud you all for the strength and determination you show in this fight. I want above all to be side by side fighting with you all and I am working to be there with all of you winners. thank you all for showing me it can be done. Curiosity if one of you know what the perntage is and whos study the results are taken from please post here.  Michael

[dominosarah]

good one!!!!  LMAO

[Mikeinthesouth]

nuts

[dominosarah]

We have had years of demons and they dont leave as quickly as we would like.  I am so damn glad to see you thinking that you are important to yourself and others.  Your babies love you and want you to be around for a long time.  We want you to be around becuz we value your friendship.  Keep expressing yourself...........sara

Did someone say nuts??  LMAO

[Mikeinthesouth]

I have been thinking to hard as of lately...... I think of this tremendous web of deceit of truly who I have evolved to these last five years to the ones I love and are my close relatives....... I have watched life go by all around me as I chase the high or try my darndest to kick this demon on my back........  To think that I have been smitten with a love for a devil drug that slowly eats my being piece by piece each day that passes.............. I am clean 100% as I write this and seeing things for the first time as the black crowes sang in their tune.......... I feel so smitten when the few times I actually get to the point of euphoria which is so far and few anymore I have to do so much dope to get to that point I wonder when the time for me to cash is going to be and I actually try to get myself ok with it but when like this clean I realize the mess i will leave in this life. I have been like the big book of aa says I have roared through lifes like a tornao so would leave a pile of mess here and I hate to believe that would be my destiny I would hope that the meaning of my life is so much more. I don't mean accomplshments I have had some things actually published and some would be proud of that but not I want more than that I want my family and few friends I have left to think well of me not the junkie they have seen spinning the mess I have as of lately........... I will keep the fight up and try to hang on like I am and hopes and prayers to my maker that it catches this time this time this time gotta be it or I sear I am going to pull my hair out..... LOL The demon drug will have to remove m name off his list of people to claim and diminish out of this life.............. I have so much to express it is nuts............... No sara not those nuts LOL>>>>............. Love to all of mine here..........................

[dominosarah]

I have no clue the percentage but am just stopping by to say hi!!!!  You are side by side with all of us Mike fighting this addiction.  We all hold the key to unlock the chains that hold us down.  Keep fighting my friend.............sara