Is there something that you are overlooking that would move you to a complete withdrawal? All too often we do not take the time to think things out. We leap and then wonder why we missed the mark. Everything worthwhile doing needs to be examined from every angle. "Gee, I tried to do it but!" But what? What is more worthwhile doing than getting clean and feeling the weight of the world finally getting off your back.? You will know what you have truly done when you see the beaming faces of your family and friends at your success. Your walking with your head held high will have people thinking,"There is someone who has just hit the jackpot. Most of all you will have back the world that you had almost forgotten and you will be the king of it. There are a millions of cliches as to, "Why." There are just as many as to,"Why not?" Stories of success and failure abound here by the dozens but most of them are on the positive side. Those who made it, made it because this is what their hearts and minds wanted badly. Don't depend entirely on the experts because no expert can help without your complete cooperation and unless you want in your very being. They can help only so far but the big job is up to you and how much you value who you are. Think about it. How valuable do you think you are? Are you worth saving? I don't believe there is anyone here on this forum or amongst your family and friends who beneath it all think you are a lost soul and not worth saving. You are no less than anyone wnywhere . You just need to tell that to yourself and then get on with it. We will be waiting for you at the end of the road. Don't make us wait too long.