I was in a methadone clinic for 3 yrs, the highest I was on was 55mg. For, the past yr I was under a regular physician, she wrote me my methadone, an attempt to help save money. I went down to 40mg a day, now with no warning she has informed me she cant refill my meds. I think she wrote to many scripts or something. But, I 've been wanting to come off for awhile now, but I'm terrified I've haven't been sober in 5 yrs! I'm not very strong when it comes to this, I think I have this perception in my head that it is going to be soo bad, that I've worked myself up so bad, that I've started having panic attacks. My husband did it 3 yrs ago, himself, he went to work everyday, and made it look so easy. I have his support, and my mother, but I feel like it's hopeless!! I have some of my meds left, I took 3 a day, for a couple of days, and today I only took 2 1/2. I'm trying to go down slow, but I don't have a lot to do it like they do when I was in the clinic. I think they said, go down once every 4 weeks but, I don't have enough pills to do it that way. I do want this very bad, but I'm very skeptic, that I can. I was just wondering if anyone else is maybe doing the same, or has done it this way and it work. I'm praying, that I can do this. I am a stay at home mom, and have a lot of time on my hands, and that worries me, that I will sit here and drive myself crazy, thinking about everything. Please help, any advice, or suggestions would help. Thanks.