Awww this made me cry. It's so tough being an addict. I think a lot of us isolate during the really difficult times. I know I do. I use humour so much to mask my feelings as well.
The one thing about pouring it out here is we use screen names. I have shared more here than I have shared with anyone yet there is so much I still keep inside.
MsD (Laura sweety) just know you have friends here and you can post here as Ms Delight and still keep your anonymity. I had no idea how much you were dealing with and I would like to help if I can.
Please post and let us know how you are doing.
Hugs
Pat
Lovely MsD -
You have been such an angel here on MH. You have helped so many folks with your medical experience and your words of wisdom. You have supported and uplifted me thru so many tough moments and have been a source of laughter as well.
You are so loved my dear friend and I am blessed to have you in my life!
xoxoxo
Ms D-
You are loved by us all and I REALLY appreciate you. I want you to know that I am always here for support, to chat or vent.
I am not a very private person but I respect those that are.
You have been a great source of comfort to me, I would like to return the favour if it is needed.
Love
Lu
Okay well, I am writing this note to one of the only people who really knows just how crazy I can get. I'm stubborn, non-compliant, have delusions of grandeur and fall into catatonic depression. You are there for me through it all. I like knowing you are watching my tempo and helping me keep rhythm. It is obvious you actually care about me, that means so much. I am also waiting to hear that hit single youre trying to bust out of that inspired heart of yours. Thanks for being my friend, you have made my life much better.
Awwwww. Ms D I just love you. You bring such caring and humor to mh and me. I know you dont like talking about yourself but if I can do anything to make it better please let me know. Honey just take care of you. Put yourself first because you are so worth it! Lots of prayers going up for you chick.
MsD, you are a rockstar lady! You are an amazing person that has helped SO many, including me. We love you MsD. I know all too well how it is to be 'the caregiver'. It's in our nature, spirit, and soul to be that way. We are so busy taking care of everyone else that we often (if not always) manage to neglect ourselves. I am wired exactly the same. When going through a rough time I would rather have all of my teeth pulled without novacaine instead of talking about, or 'bugging' others with my drama and troubles. We really have to get out of that frame of mind though. We have to get stuff off of our chest. We have to sometimes lean on others for help. I know it's massively out of your comfort zone, and basically goes against your nature. It has to be done though. We cannot properly take care of any one if we don't first take care of ourselves. We are all here for you MsD. Sending a big hug right down the I-95 corridor to ya! :)
Nice post Spider!
It's hard when we're private people. I hope that Laura is okay. It's super-difficult for some us to reach out when we should. (That's been my personal experience, anyway).
Laura, if you're reading this -- you've helped many, many folks here, including me (during my surgery in particular). Please, don't isolate -- don't hurt alone. You're a strong person & probably have a strong streak of 'suck-it-uptivetuity' but as alien as it is to your nature there's no need to bear it all alone :)
Sometimes, you have to force yourself to open up a bit. Hoping all is well with you, my friend. :)