She had me talked into getting back together and I want to believe she can make better choices, but every day she shows me the drugs are present and she is not going to stop taking too many at a time. She uses the same excuses over and over and over, like a broken record. She wants me to believe in her, but I can't. She wants me to be patient, but my heart hurts so bad that I can hardly think of anything else.
I am struggling, feeling weak, feeling defeated. I want out and cant get out until I can get a few paychecks from my new job under my belt. I am suffering and in so much pain, and no amount of crying, begging, bit*hing, pleading, threatening, or anything else is going to make her stop abusing the soma.
I am so hurt, I cannot even explain how painful this is, to watch someone you love, kill themselves.
Thanks for listening.