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wife left/worried
Not sure its a question but here goes....
I came to this web site three years ago with a terrible hydrocodone addiction, and after 12 long days of withdrawls, and working hard at it, I am 3 years clean. I have been happily married for twenty years (last month), and I did say happily!
I came home from work yesterday, and she was gone. All of her stuff and about $90,000 from our savings account.
I am devistated. We never argued, fought, nothing. We had made love the night before, and discussed vacation plans in the hot tub that morning. Now shes gone! Turned off her phone and just gone.....
I am concerned about my sobriety. Went to a meeting this morning, and I think it helped.
I'm not sure if I just want to know "why", or if something else is going on....
Everyone here has always had my back, and I credit them every day for saving my life 3 years ago.....
Please help me..................
I came to this web site three years ago with a terrible hydrocodone addiction, and after 12 long days of withdrawls, and working hard at it, I am 3 years clean. I have been happily married for twenty years (last month), and I did say happily!
I came home from work yesterday, and she was gone. All of her stuff and about $90,000 from our savings account.
I am devistated. We never argued, fought, nothing. We had made love the night before, and discussed vacation plans in the hot tub that morning. Now shes gone! Turned off her phone and just gone.....
I am concerned about my sobriety. Went to a meeting this morning, and I think it helped.
I'm not sure if I just want to know "why", or if something else is going on....
Everyone here has always had my back, and I credit them every day for saving my life 3 years ago.....
Please help me..................
You continue just by continuing. When you feel like you can't hang on for one more minute, just hang on. (Gawd I sound like REM (:) But it's true. Glen you must must must get some help here.
I am very concerned.
You are very fragile.
You are very hurt.
You are very lost.
Of course you are. I would be too. But it is up to you what you do about it. Please stop isolating and obsessing. It is the worst thing that you can possibly do.
You gotta get out there and do whatever you can to get through this. And you WILL get through this. I pinky promised remember?
You are human and you are hurting. Get some love man. You deserve it.
Now.
Hugs buddy- I'm here and I'm sending all the love and positive vibes that I can.
Lu
I am very concerned.
You are very fragile.
You are very hurt.
You are very lost.
Of course you are. I would be too. But it is up to you what you do about it. Please stop isolating and obsessing. It is the worst thing that you can possibly do.
You gotta get out there and do whatever you can to get through this. And you WILL get through this. I pinky promised remember?
You are human and you are hurting. Get some love man. You deserve it.
Now.
Hugs buddy- I'm here and I'm sending all the love and positive vibes that I can.
Lu
Struggling to try and find a reason to go on today...
everything I do reminds me off her...
Im not sure how to continue, not sure I want to
everything I do reminds me off her...
Im not sure how to continue, not sure I want to
Aww Glen hell I hate her for leaving you too. It's incredible how two people who are married for so long can see things so differently.
I am sorry you feel so isolated at home and in work. I know from our conversations how your job is.
Please don't worry about how your posts sound. We all say things we
Regret at one point or another.
You are living a much different life, not by your choice.
It is absolutely understandable that you are sad, mad, lonely,
and then other times not even sure of your feelings. Wanting to spend
Time with someone.
I am proud of you. You have been clean for three years and are secure
In that. That is a wonderful thing.
Enjoy your time with Rachel. It is ok if you are sad and cry when she is there.
Showing your emotions to her is a good thing. She knows what your family means to you. She knows you love her mom. Yes you will always love her. I get that.
You are a great man Glen. I pray for your comfort, peace and healing.
Much love and hugs, debbie
I am sorry you feel so isolated at home and in work. I know from our conversations how your job is.
Please don't worry about how your posts sound. We all say things we
Regret at one point or another.
You are living a much different life, not by your choice.
It is absolutely understandable that you are sad, mad, lonely,
and then other times not even sure of your feelings. Wanting to spend
Time with someone.
I am proud of you. You have been clean for three years and are secure
In that. That is a wonderful thing.
Enjoy your time with Rachel. It is ok if you are sad and cry when she is there.
Showing your emotions to her is a good thing. She knows what your family means to you. She knows you love her mom. Yes you will always love her. I get that.
You are a great man Glen. I pray for your comfort, peace and healing.
Much love and hugs, debbie
Jinx,
You must have a huge heart! Thank you for continuing to care.
I got back yesterday, and my daughter came down this afternoon.
She's here till Monday. I Love her so much! We sat outside all day and just watched the ocean. Took a long walk, talked about her future. Steamed some crab/lobster...ate way too much, lol...watched the fireworks. (Still going off)
Then, for no reason, I excused myself, and went into the bathroom, turned off the lights, sat in the corner, and cried for an hour...
I feel so helpless, out of control...there's that word again.
I HATE her for leaving me. I HATE her for breaking my heart. I hate her for ripping my family apart. And, I'll never love anyone like her ever again...
I Love her and miss her so much. Im truly broken.
I made my last post just prior to a very tense business trip. I read it when I got back. I don't even know who that was! I sounded like an arrogant a-hole.
I wasn't even going to post again. Im embarrassed. I was trying to explain how isolated I was, how normal help wasnt so accessible. Instead I sounded like someone id like to smack. Im very sorry...
I honestly cant see feeling different in a year or ten years...
A PART of me is missing. How does that get better?
Who does that to someone who's loved, provided, protected them for twenty years?
I am so tired of hurting...wish it would just end.
just checking in on you. hope you are having a nice holiday. cannot recall if your daughter was planning on spending this day with you or not. hope so.
not trying to nag on you at all about relationships or anything else. i hope you do not feel like i am. you are a grown man and if spending time with a beautiful woman is what you want to do then more power to ya.
i think everyone here felt for you and your pain was palatable. hard to see anyone going through that and not try and offer any help we can.
wish everyone here lived close enough to hang out with you for a weekend to lift your spirits. i am here via the net though and do care and think about you often.
i can imagine you feel like a fish out of water and have to adjust to even the simple things in life.. try to not think too far into the future and get through one day at a time.
soon a year will have passed and you will not know how you did it.
not trying to nag on you at all about relationships or anything else. i hope you do not feel like i am. you are a grown man and if spending time with a beautiful woman is what you want to do then more power to ya.
i think everyone here felt for you and your pain was palatable. hard to see anyone going through that and not try and offer any help we can.
wish everyone here lived close enough to hang out with you for a weekend to lift your spirits. i am here via the net though and do care and think about you often.
i can imagine you feel like a fish out of water and have to adjust to even the simple things in life.. try to not think too far into the future and get through one day at a time.
soon a year will have passed and you will not know how you did it.
How are you doing love? Looking for an update...you've been in my thoughts!
XOXO
XOXO
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