Thinking and praying for you! may you have strength in your time of need!
Spider Girl!!!
How are you feeling Now??
I used to get that alot back in my 6-7 month..I would just take a small walk around my property and smell the forest and the flowers if there was not 6 ft of snow..lol If there was snow it took me a hard time to plow through just a few feet..That wore me out..I sure hope you can find something to re-direct yourself..Put some Music on and dance or do some kind of art work..lol
Praying for you.
Ohh my sweet tootie! I love you too......well I am glad you're not getting high....that would make it that much harder to stop once you didn't really need them anymore. Ya it's true......you will never have that initial sense of euphoria that you had before.....never ever.....so not worth it cuz ya they do make you depressed. Prayers for u chicky xo
Spider, I just got your post. I'm so sorry your going through this. You are such a loving and compassionate person! You've helped me through so much. All I can say is just take Deep breaths and remember how much you are loved and all the people that care about you. I'm praying, chanting and asking the universe to help you lol I figure why not get them all involved. Anyways much love and best wishes, Lisa R
Spider, I don't know how to help you except to tell you I love you. God, how I hate these mental things. I said I was kind of looking forward to taking the hydrocodone after the surgery. Well I don't get a high or anything taking them. I swear they depress me instead. the nurse said to take it anyway so I am. I wonder why I didn't get the high I use to? I'm glad I don't so at least it will be easy to quit them again. I'm saying all this to let others know you can't catch that high again. God Bless
Thankyou guys, I'm still having a hard time but I'm determined to win this. I can't believe how hard it is for me to type this! Thank Cheese for auto correct.........everyone.......thankyou ......so grateful! love and hugs. xo
Those things that make me feel anxious and lost, I have to battle those things when things are stable. When those feelings hit, I find being in the moment, trying to relax, and have some of my guards hold my hand is all I can do. I used to fear facing those demons while stable , in fear my very thought of them would bring them back. I came to realize the demons are always there whether I think of them or not. I do not try to defeat them, but when I feel my best, I build up my armor and learn about the demons. I know now not to confront them in a dark place, when I can't see in my attic. By learning their ways in the daylight, I have much less fear when I enter the attic in the dark of night. If you ever want to read with me in Gotham's Library, I know some sources for these Spiritual Crisis. For now 'll hold your hand and sing you to sleep with a lull-a-by, with songs of redemption. Rest easy my sweet arachnid, the light of day is dawning. Nothing can come out of the attic and get you, so stay out of there for now. When the sun comes up we can go up there together and take inventory. You will see, there is nothing to fear. All the memorabilia may need some organizing and dusted of used up spider webs, but there is nothing up there that you didn't put in there. Won't you help me sing, these songs off freedom, their all I've ever had, redemption songs, redemption songs, songs of freedom.
Charlotte, please be ok. Im not sure what happened but we need you to be ok please.
I love you xoxo
Thank you I'm ok now.....I just can't write....I knew your words would help me thankyou I love you all. xo
Hi Spider. Praying for you.
How are you doing Spider?
A minute at a time my friend....we are here for you...
are you having heart palpitations??
try breathing into a paper bag.
bear down like you are going to the bathroom.
cough really hard.
belly breathe, just like lu described, but make sure your belly is moving
panic attacks are scary. hope you feel better
Hang in there Spider, this to shall pass. In the mean time, give yourself a hug. I'm sending one to ya. Breath deep and put yourself in a quite, peacefully place. And KNOW your loved.
Can't catch your mind or your breath?
First off deep breaths.
In through the nose for 6 counts
Hold for two
Out through the nose for 8
This will signal your CNS and PNS to calm down. Do it until your limbs feel heavy.
Did you drink too much caffeine? What brought this on? Have you had panic attacks before?
Just breathe and try to tell us what is happening.
xo
Lu