you are most definitely in the right place here on this forum.....you'll get all the support you could ever imagine....
blessings and sweet dreams....
kim
hey there, congrats on seeing you problems. so many folks need other folks to tell them their problems before they see there problem. you can do this and like you said you have stopped other things all on your own. but you are right you have to see why you like to numb yourself. but dont do it for passed reason, you can never change them. as hard as that seems your past is your past just forgive yourself. i know i am not saying it right but you cant change yesterday but you can change today and tomorrow. you are in my prayers, and do understand not wanting to tell folks but you have to if you hold it all in it will come back for you. any support and all support is so helpful.
I take klonopin 2mgs twice a day. and basically whatever I can get, I'm starting the habit of dr shopping which I have got to stop! I do get a buzz from the pills when I take at leatst 5. the only sign of withdrwl I get is sweats and diareah. Nothing compared to the heroin withdrwls and I did basically quit cold turkey with the help of my loving parents and the ocassional xanax to help me sleep. they kept me under lock and key it was thw woest thing i ever went through. Just because I still think about the heroin, I promise I will never put myself or my parents through it again, I almost died so many times. I was like walking death =, but ofcourse I did not realize that. My dad said it would just kill him if I ever did it again, I am in tears now just thinking about what I put them through and they are still here for me. I am truley redy to stop. I just have to break the cycle. I just need the support from people who know what I am going through. Thanks so much for responding, I am so excited about sharing this, I think it is a form of therapy in its own way. I hope you all will be here with me through this journey, thank you so much you just dont know what it means to me. I have NO friends, all my so called friends are severe addicts and I have broke all ties with them and moved 3 hours away, so I think I am on the right track. Thanks again I will keep all of you posted sleep well everyone goodnigh.
Yes of course there is hope for you. My habits started back in Vietnam days - if I can clean up after a 40 year habit you can do about anything. Keep posting and reading - you can't have too much knowledge about this stuff. When you do the pills and dont even get the buzz it is time to quit. And I know about the anxiety and panic attacks after you quit using - most uncomfortable and distressing......its quite nice to be where I am today as oppossed to where I was last year at this same time........................
I'm baffled that at your having no withdrawals as well. But then, you aren't feeling anything from the pills either are you? You have a world of hope, begin your life! I sent you a pm
The saying, once an addict, always an addict is all too true. You are showing all the signs of addiction. I am surprised you don't have w/d each month. Is there anything else you are taking too?
Is there hope? Yes!! It will not be easy but if you had the strength to kick heroin, you can kick this too. It will take an irrevocable decision to never use ANY addictive substance again. This includes recreational drugs and drinking. Each of these can 'trigger' you to go back to the pills or worse.