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I was clean on day 7 then day 8 got away from me..yes I was going through some cold/flu hell all last week but really..it was weak, and really no excuse.

It seemed that at the end day 4, Sunday I was in a good place mentally and physically and ready to roll on Monday at work.  Then in the middle of the night I wake up very ill and miserable and actually broke out into tears on the night of day 7 from my misery, on Day 8 I took three vics other things happened to pull me down further, I screwed up no doubt and really there is no excuse, I am still recovering from my illness and now struggling even more mentally because of my set back by taking 3 vics on Thursday however I justified it.

Seems God was not willing to let me go through it to easy I need to really understand my addiction and the withdrawals or I will never really be clean maybe this is why all this happened to really put it in my face and not let me have any trace of denial about my addiction.  I dont know I am just trying to keep fighting..
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Well, just because you ate a piece of cake doesn't mean you blew the diet and have to eat the whole thing! Learn from this and resolve to move forward. You have a gift, it's called the Present. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow hasn't gotten here yet, so we have today. You are back on track now and beating yourself up will just make you feel worse. Keep fighting and posting. We'll be here to support and help you any way we can. Oh, and if you aren't already, taking a good multivitamin and B Complex along with other supplements listed in the Thomas recipe will help.

Best of luck,

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Hello, friend,
No one is judging you.  This spot is great for support.  I do not believe God makes things tough for us.  It is the nature of getting off the meds.  You had a tough time.  It is not unusual to want to take meds.  Please stop beating yourself up.  You will be ok.  I believe you will succeed because you want to.  Bless you and I am saying prayers for you.
Just so you know-I am struggling, too.  I expect I will be successful.  I am working toward being free of the beast of w/d.
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You are doing great, no one is judging you here. I ...as well as everyone is rooting for ya !!!!!!!!
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Did you just take the 3?  If so, I did the same thing.  I know it's really upsetting but you can just keep going.  I didn't even enjoy them.  They just made me sick and hungover.  It's hard to believe after all we have been through that we would want to take pills but that is the nature of the beast.
I know it's hard but try not to beat yourself up.  Many have done it and just get back up and fight harder.  I had no idea how hard the mental part would be.  Keep posting and keep fighting.  I am.
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