****** up

[wabbat]

how bad is this i was doing great then my mum comes rnd and says dont worry about ur nose u can just smoke it, now im charged up with my nearest and dearest its my own fault but WHY DONT THEY CARE ABOUT ME i was doing ok now im ****** just wanna run away I HATE MYSELF

[Holliee]

Hello honey I read your post and wanted to smack your mom wow that is plain wrong and she should be called out on that. Honey don't let others take you down. My sis use to smoke it bad and she would do anything to get more from selling herself, stealing you name it. Finally after all worrying etc and time in jail she gave up crack and smoking it and is now doing well. I spent so many nights worrying crying and leaving house at 3am to go get her from a crack house... She would look so bad, smell, bed up days, so sad. I use to snort this from coke in younger yrs an then pills for about 7 yrs so my nose was awful but 9 mos later its healed an all better now. Use to I would have to put something up it to make pain stop weather it be oc, opiate, asprin then when knew I had to stop snorting cause I had NO tissue left on right side. I started putting neospone (oniment) up it with a q tip and cleaning it out helped a lot after a WEEK OF THAT THE burning stopped. You can do this we are all here for you please keep posting on here. You welcome to PM me anytime I sent you a friend request... Message me any question or need talk always on at night 5pm till 11pm usually sometimes later....

[gizzy32]

I am worried about you today. The day after using coke/crack the crash is so bad. Almost all of our dopamine is used up and the crazy throughts and depression is scary. You are gonna HAVE to make some changes to get away from this junk, otherwise your chances are almost nil, i don't mean that to be negative, but having coke around when trying to stop is torture and I could not stay clean, not a chance.

There is a life out there without drugs, but what are you willing to do to change this? Please keep talking to us and sorry your feeling so bad today. It's now or never. Tomorrow is a new day, so don't give up.

[shrimpman]

Try not to beat yourself up--------I have been trying to quit for 3 months dreading what I knew I was In for----I thank God that I found this site and all the support I have gotten-----we are all here for you-----you can beat this but you have to want it more than anything----It's been 20yrs since I used coke-----very wicked stuff-----I got hooked on percocet over the past 2 yrs due chronic back pain-----My dr. was more than happy to give me all I wanted-------I'm 7 days clean and living in the real world again------I'm going to find a way to deal with the back pain but pills aren't meant for chronic pain------the anxiety and depression will go away with time------that was the worst part for me----I'm 52 and I read a post saying by the time you reach your 50's the chances of quitting were dismal-----I'm here to say that's not true------If I can do it you can too

[desperatetostop]

I'm still here....you can do this.

You asked 'why don't they care about me'...cuz they're addicts too...we addicts only care about our drug of choice when in the throes of the addiction...once we get out, yes, we can love ourselves and others again...but while we're in it, the drug is our one love!

no need to hate yourself. you are young...you CAN do this.

[tooklastdose]

try to stay strong,  there are many of us in your corner.

[wabbat]

im  sorry i feel so sad im **** aint neveer gonna get out of this my nose is awful im gonna die young i hate myself so much i just want to be  free from this. i binge badly im 5.2" my body cant take this i go from one extreme to the other., i cant  stop crying i am disgusted with myself

[gizzy32]

I just wanted to tell you that one of my old coke dealers would do lines with her 16 year old son. I remember going in to buy blow sometimes and even while high I would see that and it was heartbreaking. His own mom doing rails with him and it pissed me off even though I was a big druggie at the time. Please come back on and talk to us or answer my pm. Don't make a bad choice that will cost you your life.

[ZJILLIAN]

Don't give her the satisfaction of destroying your life.Think of it as a life or death struggle, you know like on the animal channels on TV.--A wombat against a crocodile. One is going to die and it sure shouldn't be you!  

[gizzy32]

Do you live with your Mom.

[gizzy32]

What. I just posted to you not long ago. I am sad to hear your Mom said this, wtf are you kidding. Are you freebasing now.  If you start freebasing coke and smoking crack then you will have about another 10 problems, but since ur charged up right now, it`s not gonna sink in. One question ok. How are you going to stop now. You just found a worse way to do coke and trust me, trust me, if you don`t stop there is no turning back.

You need to care about yourself first and foremost. Please please get out of there now. I am sending you a pm. Look in your inbox ok.