Hi congrats on 2 weeks.....your post screams addict all over it and thats ok if your willing to do what it takes to stay clean....addiction will not just go away just because you stopped the pills....the addict that lives in your head is alive and well...you need a program of recovery to learn how to deal with both triggers and cravings your not responsible for the craving but you are responsible for the response aftercare is a critical part of recovery and most of us with a bit of clean time will tell you it takes a program of recovery for me N/A has been the majic bullet it is free the meetings are only a hour long and it will give you a safe plase to share what is going on in your head the pills are not the problem there our squered solution to the way we feel it is a thinking disease that is out to kill you with time and working the steps you will learn how to live life on lifes terms you will also develop real ''clean'' friend in the progam for support this is a critical part of recovery the only way to do this wrong is to try and do it alone this is a ''we'' progam not a ''i'' progam it will also show your wife your doing every thing possible to stay clean....nothing changes if nothing changes google a N/A meeting in your area..................Gnarly....................
Dilated pupils are completely normal.
Congratulations on two weeks too. As far as triggers go there's a good acronym for it which sums up some ballpark situations. HALT. Hungy, Angry, Lonely, and Tired ... I'd also add Happy to the H, as when we feel great is when the first hurdle of "Just one more time" will likely kick in.
The dilated pupils was normal for me, particularly the first week.
hi Sean congratulations on 2 weeks! that is fantastic! the first part of recovery is always hard. i'm not sure about the pupils thing either. in my aftercare / treatment program, they say that we as addicts have to prove ourselves to our loved ones b/c we have lost their trust. hope you can sleep and congrats again!