30 mg methadone help please someone!?

[Trissy32]

I have been in clinic 11 months now was on 100 mg tappers down to 30 mg yesterday what a torment!! The doctor wamts keep me at 30 mg til Monday told me don't come to the clinic Monday threw Wednesday and wants me come back in Thursday to start on 2 mg suboxone .... I've been hearing it'll make me worse cause levels be high but why will that place do this ? Please someone respond times ticking !

[Ftmill]

For some reason I can't post in the main thread so here goes...  

I've been in and out of this place for years...  SCARED TO DEATH to even drop 1mg off 6 years of 90mg clinic methadone.   Let me tell you what happened.    I was done - went to treatment hoping for a 'magical' ride.   The first few days where tough however PLEASE don't believe all the jailhouse talk and (*&^%%  in the clinic lines.  You WILL hurt.   You'll crave like never before.   After about day 4 I started to feel better.   The "no energy" thing is true, I'll give you that, but the NA people tell me it'll come back.   I actually LOOK FORWARD now to tomorrow.   I can go ANYWHERE I want.   It's a freedom I NEVER thought ****I****  could have.   And for the men out there don't be afraid to cry, that helps too a lot!   For me, I knew I could NEVER EVER EVER EVER taper  (and I have a strong suspicion most here can't either - I don't think an addict CAN taper)   That's a debate for another day.    Please believe me, if there was ever someone who thought he could never do it was me.  I can be and is being done everyday!   Day by day....   God bless all who suffer.

[Trissy32]

Thank u so very much!! I really appreciate that it helps a lot !! To hear someone made it through this gives me hope..... And you're right people will say anything to scare you!! I'm not gonna let them stop me I'm only gonna use the suboxone for a few days to help ease a little.....congratulations!!!! Your so brave and a surviver!!
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[Ftmill]

You get it done it's so worth it!     I'm telling you I was the scariest 48-year-old baby on the planet  --   It took somewhat of an intervention but now day 23,  if you've ever taken advice in your  life take this ,  it IS DOABLE

[Trissy32]

Thank u, I appreciate your advice .... Means a lot .... Shew nausea is hitting me bad this morning an I've began sneezing an nose pouring out of both sides..... My kneck, lower/upper back and my legs and ankles are hurting seems like my bones been breaking..... These next few days as well as today is got me up inside my head shew my heads messed up enough and I'm weak as water and anxiety worse then ever.... My tummy rolling and at times kills me.... I'm keeping what all you've said in mind I want you to know that... An thank u again!! Trissy

[Trissy32]

Oh did you say your still going through this? How longs it linger?

[Ftmill]

If you haven't gone back, you're a f-ing ROCKSTAR!    You know how many still suffer?   Day 24 here and many leg ache and I've totally lost my will to eat which does scare me a little.   Sometimes I feel "broken" even though they tell me I'm fine.  Just takes time.   My energy is in waves and I consider it a gift and run with it.   As HARD as it is to ponder you don't have to quit tomorrow or next week, just the next 24 hours.   That's it.   :)

[Ftmill]

If you haven't gone back, you're a f-ing ROCKSTAR!    You know how many still suffer?   Day 24 here and many leg ache and I've totally lost my will to eat which does scare me a little.   Sometimes I feel "broken" even though they tell me I'm fine.  Just takes time.   My energy is in waves and I consider it a gift and run with it.   As HARD as it is to ponder you don't have to quit tomorrow or next week, just the next 24 hours.   That's it.   :)

[Trissy32]

Well I haven't went back to methadone an don't want to whitness this crap again!! I feel broken daily and I panick badly that's why I got nerve med prescribe always an I have PTSD and this craps bout to make me break!!!!! Ugh I hate it wish was a way out I jus layed in tub don't help an my shot knee is killn me!! And I'm clamy and head feels Funny like coming off benzos.... Weak as crap bp low

[Trissy32]

My stomachs sinking in from not eatting an energy where?! Lol I got NONE an stayn nauseated

[Ftmill]

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Read my post I'm about to write....   IT IS NOT THAT HARD ---

[Trissy32]

Now I'm feeling like I'm going through the ringer !!!! Lordy b!!!! Urrrrr not to mention I'm haven all thise hellish symptoms my mental state the worst

[Trissy32]

Thank u so very much!! I really appreciate that it helps a lot !! To hear someone made it through this gives me hope..... And you're right people will say anything to scare you!! I'm not gonna let them stop me I'm only gonna use the suboxone for a few days to help ease a little.....congratulations!!!! Your so brave and a surviver!!