32 weeks pregnant and this has got to be the end

[NeedsToStop8]

I have been taking pain pills for about 5 years now. A 7.5 would get me high for about a year or 2 and then when I met my husband it got worse. He liked taking them on the weekends, just for fun just like I was doing. We had a great hook up so they were always available. We would take hydro or percocet 10's on the weekends and then none throughout the week. Of course it got worse and then we were on to taking them ALL the time. The money we spend on these things are ridiculous. I found out I was pregnant in June 2011. I stop taking them for a week because I was so high off the fact we were having a baby and didnt want to do anything to hurt it. We decided to get 4 perc 10's one night and then never take them again. He had 2 I had 2. Well that started the roller coaster back over. Since I have had a healthy pregnancy and the baby is growing exactly like he is suppose to (he is actually measuring a week bigger than he is suppose to be) it made me feel like it was OK and the baby wasn't being affected by all of this. I know I shouldnt be taking pain pills and  the only problem I have found is risking the baby being addicted and going thru withdrawal once it is born. I want to stop my last 8 weeks to ensure baby be born pain free. Today is my first day without a pill. My doctors have no clue I take these pills. I go to all my appts and everythings is always great. I have had a 4d ultrasound and he is the prettiest little boy EVER. His heart, kidneys, all his organs are perfect via ultrasound. I just know this has to be the end of it all. I can't take anymore. I have tried my whole pregnancy to quit and never made it past day 1. My husband and I have talked and we are doing this together. We know in order to have a healthy baby this can not go on! I have been taking up to 30mg of hydro's or percs a day. Whichever we had. I take 15 mg at a time mostly a dose in the morning and a dose at night. Some days 45mgs but that is only like once a week. I do chew the pills when I take them to get a faster high. This is the first time I have admitted this and I feel terrible just writing it. I feel like I can't get up in the mornings without a pill just to clean, cook, play with my daughter or even have a good day. I have went maybe 2 days without a pill through my whole pregnancy and I do have withdrawals but I dont think they are as bad as most go through. I think mine is more mental and that is where my problem is. The physical is not great tho, I dont want to do anything, even be nice! And of course I am the sweetest person EVER when im high. No one knows about this besides my husband. I just need to STOP and I am so scared of not getting high anymore!!!!! I dont need preaching on withdrawals and pre term labor, or that I need to talk to my doctor. I am no doing that. I have tried weening myself off by cutting down the mgs everyday and I always do good until I am about done and then I just give up and do 15mgs again. I have to quit cold turkey there is no other way, I just need support, someone that was in my shoes. I hate these things, they consume my life, I live around them and this has to be the end...it has to be!!!!!!

[pretermlabor]

now in the past week i have learned more than most about certain things than most would ever during my stay in the hospitals i was informed by specialist that most of the time a mother who has used and gives birth to a baby the baby most of the time will not show any signs of withdrawl until about the fifth day after birth in fact its almost all the time so just cause these women on here are saying there baby was ok no withdrawls signs does not mean they didnt get them home and either the same day or two days later there baby was suffering and they didnt even know it weather it was crying or not eating well or something and maybe they did know it but because they made it home with there baby safe and sound theydidnt really care all that mattered was that they didnt get caught so either way its always best to tell them so that they can monitor your baby cause if you truly love your baby your gonna speak up and tell them so that you know for sure your baby is ok it dont matter if you stop 8 weeks before or not when you take them it passes to the baby and your baby 99 percent of the time with have some kind of withdrawl weather like i said at hospital or home it will happen and it may be small or huge either way you dont want your baby to suffer and dr will make it to where they know the baby will not suffer at all...i will keep everyone updated as much as i can.....

[pretermlabor]

ok so my sister inlaw went into pre term labor she also was taking hydro hers were whatever she could get her hands on this was a couple weeks ago she was 33 weeks and was 4 cent dilated having bad contractions they did the same with her as they did with me a few days ago her water finally broke she was 35 weeks 5 days and when she reached the hospital she was seven cent dilated she gave birth to her baby girl who was 4 pounds 12 ounces very tiny baby they had no concerns at first she was breathing fine and all but when i got up there to see the baby and i held her all she kept doing was a slow crying thing it was not hard for me to see it she was already withdrawling right after birth my sister inlaw then says to everyone in the room the nurses better get her paper work started to be released from there cause she wanted a smoke she didnt want to stay in there i begged her to stay with her baby she stayed the one night and signed out the next day but lied and said they told her to leave i dont see that happening not right after you deliver a baby so i knew she was lying right there now i went to my mother inlaws tonight and she was there with her boyfriend and i said why would you sign yourself out she says i didnt they told me to leave but they had to keep the baby an extra day i said for what she says and so did my mother inlaw cause the baby is not eating well she has had only 2 ounces of formula since she has been born she is just not eating properly or taking to the bottle i then looked at her and said did you tell them you were takn hydros and she says no cause i have not been she didnt want her mom to know i guess but i didnt care at this point i said to her you do know they will check that babys stool for drugs and will find it and cause you lied you could be in trouble right she goes nope i didnt take nothing i said cause so far your daughter has had 2 of the many signs of withdrawl and they will know and see it and figure it out and she just sat there for a min and then goes i didnt take nothing in my pregnancy i know she did cause i watched her do it a few times and her boyfriend was buying them for her off my brother inlaws tomorrow she is suppose to pick the baby up from the hospital i will keep u informed on what happens after this in case this helps anyone with this type of situation...

[pretermlabor]

to have the baby just yet she said if i can even make it to 35 weeks it would be awesome cause mothers whom is the best place to grow the baby there is nothing like it if not still ok baby looks great she also shared some important information with me that a baby born pre term is less likley to have withdrawl symptoms only because  there little bodies were still developing and there tiny so they wont feel as much as a normal newborn would she goes im not saying this is prob for the best cause like i said the mothers whom is the best home for your baby to fully develop to enter into this world but it does help that a baby is pre mature when it comes to withdrawl symptoms and i had a bit of relief cause i think thats what she knew i needed to hear at that time...and i did i really did it was like this doulbe wammy for me baby will be great all the way around...now i would like to take back my last post and this one is the one i would reccomend for all who are in this situation....it is very much the best thing you can do in this situation when asked are you taking any meds at home tell um yes i am they cant kill you and they didnt call cps on me in fact they really could have cared less as long as i was honest and opened with them and the fact that i tried wein myself off them turned into seriouse danger cause guess what your gonna have to tell them no matter what they will find it and if you hide it and lie and say oh no im not taking nothing your dam straight your in trouble cause then when your baby is born and starts to suffer cause you wanted to hide it there gonna be mad that you would put you newborn through it with no help...trust me i was just like the one who started this forum and in the end the women on here telling you to tell your dr are the ones who are giving you the best advice ever ever and i cant even Stess Enough With The EVER they know what there talking about trust me when part 2 of the other half sorry ran out of space.........i say it all you have to say is yes to the question of are you taking any meds at home and you tell them what it is and it will be asked when you are in labor if you can come to saying it before hand i would rec it only because i would not be in pre term labor as u are reading this now....i have a few more storys i will share under this one  that i feel need to be herd that have happened in the past three days and i will try to keep updates on how im doing and how the baby is doing...i wish everyone the best of luck on here cause if your onhere your looking for advice and i know how hard it is to want to know everything before hand so that your ready for the outcome of whats to happen next.....

[pretermlabor]

well i went into pre term labor and still am in pre term labor but i can tell you this much when i started bleeding i went to my dc from there my ob said get up to labor and delivery asap to have a stress test and ultra sound when i got there and of course i had to walk because i dont have a car and it takes about 45 min to walk but when i got there they strapped me to baby monitors and a nurse came in and said mam can you feel that and i said what she said your contracting badly i turned to the monitor and yes i was they were back to back and way over the 100 mark and lasted about 2 min each it was bad but i felt no pain at all it just felt like pressure like i had to pee really bad they then said ok we got to put you on magneseum and i know i spelled that wrong im sorry in case you dont know what magneseum is its a muscle relaxer that they put you on and its given through an iv but its suppose to stop contractions you have to be on it 24 hours and off it for 24 hours it made me feel like crap not even lying now one of my mid wife came in to talk to me two hours on the mag to tell me that i had to have 2 beta shots that would be giving to me in the butt every 12 hours hurt like hell if you dont know what that is its 2 shots that mature the babys lungs faster so that when the baby is born they will be able to breathe like a normal baby would they had no choice but to give them to me cause they really thought i was having my baby at 32 weeks now the second day in ladies to all that are like will they find out will they know guess what my dr came in and told everyone including my husband that they all had to step out of the room for a min she had to discuss something with me in private  so they left the room she then walked bedside to me with a peice of paper in her hand and said the reason i asked them to leave is because of this she showed me what was on the paper it was a drug screen results form that said i was positive for opiates she said hunny what did you take i said hydrocodone im perscribed this by my primary care for arthritis and my kidney pain she said ok how much do you take i said it depends on the day sometimes what im perscribed sometimes way more i said im perscribed 10 500 3  a day she said ok i said when i came in the other night for bleeding i told the nurse that night i was taking them at home and what i was taking and she said she was notwriting it down cause its as needed she goes ok so then another mid wife one of my fav of them all came in to talk to me and told me what would happen after i gave birth they were very happy that i told them but said that they really want me to deliver in a better hospital that could handle this situation properly i said thats dine and she told me that they would then give the baby morphine drops orally to wein the baby off if the baby comes out with symptoms i said ok she said now that we know and your in pain it would not be fair to you to not give it to you so when your pain gets bad let the nurse know and we will give you the hydrocodone i will order you some for up here i was astonished with this outcome i had just one of them that night  well after 3 days there in the hospital on bed rest i was then released the very same night again i filled the toilet with blood and was filling pads oh before i was released the first time i was a finger tip dilated by the way but i was filling pads with blood and having contractions again i could not feel them it was just tightening and pressure so i went back up they put me on baby monitor and i was again contracting really bad back on the mag i went only this time dr said you can only have this twice 12 hours into this and i was still contracting so he checked my cervix to find that i had dilated to a full cent he then was scared and had me trans but told me what could or could not happen they would either keep me for a while till i gave birth or they could just deliver me it all depended so i left for a bigger and better hosp...when i arrived an hour later i was seen asap and was told by specialist because i had the beta shots they were not concerned my baby weight was 4 pounds  7 ounces on ultra sound he said to me they were not gonna stop my labor but they were also not gonna induce it that they were gonna let mother nature run her course so that day my pain started again in my back mostly from being on bed rest but they gave me morphine pill to help cause they were aware of my use during pregnancy the following day they sent the nicu dr down to speak with me and ask me questions and said to ask her questions about the baby so i was then like this is great i wanted to know what i was looking at here so she came in asked me what i had been taking and for how long i told her she said ok if he has any signs we will give him oral drops of morphine to wein him off i said thats good cause i want him to be ok when he enters into this world and she goes believe me we would never let a newborn or and child suffer in pain she then told me to pat myself on the back she said you have done very well so far she said she is not worried about the baby that his weight was very good for 32 weeks she goes honey i dont know what ya did or how ya did it but pat yourself on the back for the weight on your baby that is awesome for only 32 weeks most are barley half that in their 32 week she says then that  having them beta shots has helped mature his lungs so if born now he will be able to breathe on his own so thats now of no concern she says but it dont mean its a good idea now

[tryingtocope39]

They have probably made a note in your chart & will test you & baby @ the time of birth. If you both test clean, you should have no problems.

[kendra1823]

I was just wandering what will happen if i have ffailed drugtests at my dr but i and my baby is cclean a free of withdraws at birth i stopped taking oxycodone an am clean but am still scared they will take my baby an i have a 4 year old should i be good if im clean now?