it's the simple things....

[climbingthewalls]

like listening to music, and feeling what you're listening to. Or talking with someone, and actually hearing what they're saying. Or watching your dumb dog do dumb stuff and love him for it!
It feels so good that I can feel the real "me" coming back. He ain't here 100% yet but it looks like me and smells like me so...
I again want to thank the people on this forum. you guys are the best!!! I was so skeptical prior to my detox but i honestly don't think I would've made it this far without you guys and girls!
i know i have a long road ahead but sh!t listening to tunes and just enjoying the day..............

[climbingthewalls]

dude, the guilt, misery, sadness and sheer terror of "running out" have been with me for quite some time....but dude, you are ALMOST there....please hang in!!! these past few days have been pure hell but there is light at the end duder. I got a call from one of my "friends" tonight too and amazingly I said no and dont call me anymore!!! believe me I'm just as shocked as anyone else lol!!
but think about how bad these last few days have been???? do you REALLY want to put yourself through that again???? just hang tight brotherman! it WILL get better!!

[saspan]

man I don,t want no part of that gel, that dude was in a world of hurt . lol man I,m zapped and scrambled this evening. the guy I get my pills from lives right down the street from me, he called this evening and told me had just reupped. that was tuff!but just for today I have ,nt used this is truly a 1 day at atime deal. hopefully every day will lessen the want to use for us all like I said before I think this is my last chance. I really don,t know how I have held it together last 10 years or so.i don,t know if you were like me or not but if I did,nt have my stash I put every thing on hold I mean every thing.i,m embarrassed to treat my family like this and drag them into my addiction and make them unknowingly conpirators in my drug use.  peace!!

[climbingthewalls]

dude, I've laughed and cried these past few days.....hang in there!!!
if you can handle British humor i got to send you something.....check your inbox , it WILL lift you!!!. i was in no mood to read it when it came but oh did it make me chuckle.....

[saspan]

pink, blue ,purple polka dot I need some if it will get me out of this funk I,m in t onite. man I need some energy. I,m getting mixed signals in my head . hell I broke out in tears this evening. whatz up with that . lol  peace out!!!!!!!!

[climbingthewalls]

pink is for pussies!!!! Im'a frikin BIKER!!!!'WE can do this lady

[iwantmylifebacknow]

Exactly D! One day at a time! Embrace the good days and frack the pink cloud! I hate pink lol

[climbingthewalls]

frack the pink cloud. We're BOTH doing OK at the mo. i dont profess what tomorrow will bring but I know we have BOTH worked hard to get to today!! One day at a time sweetie!!!!

[iwantmylifebacknow]

Umm what is the pink cloud!

[climbingthewalls]

was a little worried about the "pink cloud" comment.......
i know I'm struggling but Pink???

[Amandag78]

Charlotte, i didnt read comments before i commented and was going to say "Beware of the Pink Cloud lol"

[climbingthewalls]

no, thank you.....it's the continued support that I have found on this site that has helped me through! it gave me the strength to tell a "dealer friend" NO today and "i hope" helped pull another special person out too!!!! so again, just chillin out and listening to tunes and basking in life!!!!!!
I'm not lying to myself.....i know theres a long road ahead but if you can't enjoy the good times......whats the friking point????
peace!!!

[Amandag78]

Hi there, im so glad you seem to be feeling much better.
Its so good your thinking positive.
Well done, keep it up : )

[saspan]

sounds like all is getting better, I have been out today went to the market  talked to a few people and felt pretty decent.still got the cravings stronger this afternoon . glad your doin good man climb on!peace out!!!

[spider6]

Awww, man, thanks, uber thanks!  Loved this post.  Reminded me how I felt when I got my first Pink Cloud......now I spend my life trying to replicate that "high" again.  lol   Keep Rockin it friend....you've got this.  hugs and peace

[Readytolive31]

Congrats to you on everything that you have done so far and keep pushing!! :)

[jerry4664]

When we look back as an addict you think that to talk with friends you need a pill or to go on a long drive you need a pill to get through a lunch meeting another pill then a beer tastes so much better with a pill and before we know it our whole life is one pill after another and so the cycle begins But once we break it we find the the meeting has more meaning the drive is better and I talk and remember what i said the beer is still there and seems better than ever and then everything comes back to life sex, love , friends everything is great and you wonder what was wrong with you.  Many of us have been down that road and are better for it maybe our experiances are now helping others find a way out of the hole that swallows us up.  Best wishes to everyone in your struggles today and for ever PILL FREE

[Scaredformylife1981]

It's a high, the high of life no living dumbed down and numb. Positive attitude and lots of activities to stimulate your serotonin and dopamine levels. Music, exercise, sex, funny movies, eating healthy nuts and dark chocolate help too..keep up the good fight!!!