72 hours and need support

[Catbob03]

Well I am now 72 hours clean!! Feeling somewhat better but my mind is still focused on the percocet and how I can get some. I feel like I am a more fun, talkative a better worker and mom while on them. I have moe confidence in myself and feel like I can do anything. Will this come back as a natural feeling?

[xx1christinaxx]

Wow!!Thats my story right there,hi my name is maria I have 7 kids and I am an addict.I became addicted to percocet when i noticed how once they stopped working for my physical pain and began to mask my internal pain on having to live life on life's terms.The high was fun for awhile but the disease of addiction is cunning,baffling and incidious meaning it wants you to belive that taking those pills is a way of life only to have you like a slave in your own insanity running around finding ways and means to get more of those pill.Mentally the obssesive thoughts make me insane to the thought of not having anymore pills.Once i ran out I would do anything in my ability to get more pills.Then life showed up after 2 years of living for these pills that were killing me not helping me.I honestly believe that I could not funtion without them until I found help in Narcotics Anonymous .Narcotics Anonymous  are meetings for people who think they have a problem with drugs and it does not matter what you used or how much you used only what you want to do about your problem and how they can help there are no fee's or dues the only requirement is the desire to stop using any mind mood altering drug thats when i told myself I am not alone in my struggle and help was there it is up to you to make that choice if you want to stop using the pills I know it is not easy but if nothing change nothing changes,I had to change in order to see what i was making my life become because of my addiction to percocets I lost my children and self respect i am in the process of cleaning up my mess that i created no one else can do it it is something I must do for myself and know that in the beggining it was hard I had the sticking thinking syndrome if you may.Denial is part of the disease of addicting that tells you in your own voice that you can stop whenever you want to but in the meantime you continue to use saying how the drugs helps you be a better person is an excuse personally I use all those tactics and none of them worked for long when I truley became willing tahts when I found that life is not that bad and those pills will not make it any better if you want to chat just send me a message I will be more than welcome to help you just remember if you don't believe you can leave them alone believe that I believe you have the courage and sthrenght to overcome anything if you are honest openminded and willing to make a change

[OnlyOneWayOut]

Congrats to you on the 72 hours. That alone is great success. I am only on day 2 of trying to quit a 10 yr perc habit that has now turned into a 6 yr oxcy habit. I slipped today and as soon as i did it i regreted it. I envy your having 72 hours under your belt. Hopefully in 3 days i can be where you are at now. Every hour is closer to what youre aiming for. Great job thus far.

[Dane74]

hey there, and congrats on 72 hours clean!!! I totally get what your saying about the feelings you get from the percs, same thing for me.  But girl, it's false feelings, it is actually making you numb from reality and that is not a way to live right?  Keep up the good work and with the longer clean time you get under your belt the more TRUE feelings will start to come back.  You are still early in your recovery and if you haven't yet experienced it yet it will be coming and that's all the emotions.  I cried for days for no reason at all, it was so strange to me.  I was super sensitive, all that will balance itself out in no time.  I am only 37 days clean and now i am feeling again.  Am i the talkative person i was "high" no not at all, but then again, that's not the "real" me.  So try to forget the high you and bring back the real you:)  Best of luck to you.....Dane