Hi everyone! Sorry for the length but it could be pages if you have been like me and you will understand. I just wanted to come on here and say that I finally got clean. I am on my 12th day and it's pretty great feeling. I have been on this site since about October 09' when I originally started to try and quit. First of all I wish to thank all the people who stood by me and answered my posts, especially Bob! If he hadn't showed justntime like his name I would probably be dead. Thank you Bob! Now to anyone out there who is struggling with addiction let me tell my story, I hurt my knee over a year ago, so I go get an MRI and take it to the Dr. Well lucky me I live in Florida the Oxy capital. So the Dr. gives me a script of 210 30mg on my first visit "1rst Visit". That's when the insanity began. I started taking a 1/4 at a time then 1/2 then 10 then 20. I was taking up to 5-600mg every day, if I didn't take atleast 300mg I was hurting, bars also lot's of them. I was running hard since then to stay out of withdrawls, and reality. I tried so many times to step off the ride but I could hardly even slow it down, made a new years resolution that I would be clean by April, well that didn't happen. So I made a new one, to be clean on my B-day and it's happening. To anyone reading this that is taking these pills stop while your ahead we put ourselves into so much trouble, pain, and sickness. I was sick when I took meds and I was sick when I didn't take them. Let me just say I was sick and tired of being sick and tired, you see these drugs sneak up on us and take so much from all areas of our lives " financial, friends, then one day our life". That was not going to be me so I finally got it together, I went down to 300mg aday then 200, 100, 50 in 4 days and stopped, I CT the bars also (that sucked no sleep for like 8 days), but it was the smartest thing I have done in along time. I wont sugar coat it, I was sick bad, I pulled an abdomen muscle, but guess what the 7th day I woke up and felt great, and I have been ok since then, and look at my dose! All I am trying to say is if I can do it anyone can, people said that to me and I didn't believe, but it's true and I wish I had done it a year ago! Take the advise of the people who have been there, been to hell, came back we are here for you all. I know two people that are dear to me quit and have 8 days because they saw me and said if I could then so could they and it has solidified my resolve to help others. It *****, it's not fun, but it so easily doable, who hasn't had the flu? That's all it is a week of the flu for a lifetime of sobriety, and it's getting better daily! I only want to inspire because I was so scared of all I had read that it kept me running all over for pills, we can't run forever! One day we have to pay for all the play, it's unavoidable so hopefully sooner than later. God bless and if you have questions or comments please post.
Thanks everyone!