Day 9!

[killmypain]

So I've posted every day so far and I feel like it's working for me. I'm on day 9 with no pills. I quit ct from 50-75mg percocet daily....not as bad as some but after 6 years I am certainly an addict. I struggled last week but made it with little to no scarring (lol) and will continue this fight until the day I die. I will not use again because I will NOT go through this again. Yesterday was a really bad day and if I wasn't for this place, I might have relapsed.... but I didn't. I kept going..... Today I feel better. Not yet gotten my energy back but still kicking! I have cut off from all my sources of pills. I have not yet begun the aftercare beyond this forum but I would like to check out NA.....  I am curious about these stupid stomach issues..... I am still having them! I took immoduim all week last week and kind of thought that my body would start processing food "normally" sometime this week?..... I would like to hear from anyone who might have an idea how much longer this might last......

[killmypain]

I am really proud of you girl....you are an inspiration to me too....

[killmypain]

No "pink cloud" here. I'm an addict. I will never be able to take just one pill..... This is a battle that I will have to deal with for the rest of my life.... I understand that..... It's strange, at first it was all I could handle to take it one hour at a time..... Now I'm taking it one day at a time..... This is pretty good progress to me.... I think....
Now that I'm not numbing myself with the drugs, I have to surround myself with as much positive energy as possible to try to keep myself from slipping into the depression that kept me using in the first place. The physical symptoms seem to be getting a little better every day.... Now the mental battle begins.....  This is my support group for now.... I know I will eventually have to find something more personal. I'm really busy right now... I took almost a week off to detox so I'm behind in life....
I'm still tired, although I feel better than I did yesterday. My day 8 was awful... cried most of the day..... This is like an emotional roller coaster. But I'm winning this fight... I'm almost done with day 9.,... double digits tomorrow! My last bout with sobriety lasted about  6 months but I didn't ever admit that I was an addict. I only quit because of circumstances.... This time I admit it. I admit I am an addict and this time I quit because I don't want to depend on these stupid pills anymore. This time I am quitting because of ME.... I am worth it. My life without pills began 9 days ago.

[Reign30]

Since you took the immodium, your GI tract is getting use to working on it's own.  I did the same thing you did the first week of WD and it helped big time.  But once i got off the immodium, it did take about a week before i believe everything was normal with my "food processing".  Give it another few days and you should see something solid.

Congrats on your 9th day, please don't let the "pink cloud" get you back to believing that you are past the addiction.  I always get to around day 21 before I relapse because i think everything is going to be okay if i take just one.  Look into aftercare, the mental game is the hardest part.

[tavia14]

Thanks for posting! Today is day 8 for me and I feel soooo icky glad your feeling better today it will help me hold on

[Iwantanewlifenow]

I just wanted to say Congratulations and I'm proud of you..You're an Inspiration...Please keep posting.