AAAGGGH stuck & scared

Question

I have been clean from Herion 35 days now & am now trying to taper of vallium, It's been going really well. BUT i have been on holiday from work, Here's the stinger for me, i work night shift & tonight is my first night bk, So already i have had my vallium dose for the day. But i'm so scared of work tonight. I normally have 20ml before i go & a 5nl nitrazipan for about 5 - 6 am. What the hell am i goig to do 2 night ???? Eve if i wanted to i don't have the pills to take with me ( not that i do ) i have a very high stress job, Night manager of a hotel & am a lone worker so it's all on me. 
Tonigh is scaring the hell outta me but i'll keep you posted on how i feel just before i go. I start @ 10pm aagghhh

fishman10 · Accepted Answer

Keep craving time one hour at a time. More time. Your doing amazing 35 days is awesome to say the least. You don't know me but I feel you. Just get through tonight. You will get through it I promise you can do it. Ya I know who the hell am I to promise. I guess what I ment to say is you made it 35 days so I have tons of respect for your strength you are super strong and you make me think of wonderwoman. stay strong my prayers go out to you.

natalile · Answer

Thank you all from the bottom of my heart. This is the first time i'v been bk on the sight since my night shift started :( but 2 let you all no i done it YEY. because i didn't have um like someone posted there was nothing i cud do, so i just got on with the job @ hand. So i have tappered that little bit more, thanks again guys xx 
peace out nat xxx

petroglyph54 · Answer

Some people are glad that they go to work for the distraction, staying busy is some of the best medicine. It's the idle time that gives way to dwelling. It'll be better than your thinking, don't worry about it.

fishman10 · Answer

You should get yourself a gold band for each wrist. You know to deflect bullets. Sorry sweets couldn't help my self. Your Awesome Nat that's all I can say.

GoingToMakeIt · Answer

You can do this girl! You have an amazing will to get clean. Take your time, it will be overcome and you WILL be set free. I am proud of you.

tingtongtom · Answer

hey nat, glad to hear you are still off the stuff truly :) Think of tonight as one night out of thousands, it is only one night and you can get through it. TRY and accept things for how they are, you said even if you were tempted to take some you can't, so instead of worrying and stressing, try and accept things for how they are as you have no other option. You won't have any seizures or major withdraws, keep yourself occupied on your job so the time goes quicker and then skip home to bed :)

Tom