Back off the wagon

[tryn2quit]

I was proud to say that I was off all painkillers for 4 whole months...then it happened I had an accident on my motorcycle and badly injured my left leg. Was sent to the emergency room then saw my Dr. and Yep you guessed it...I'm back! and sometimes feel like such a looser but the pain is unbearable sometimes when i'm walking around at work or driving home. I really look forward to my fix, every evening. This time higher doses than what I used to take 2- 10/325 percs or 2- 7.5/ 750 vicodins. Which 1 is more damaging to your liver? I want to try to quit again but I don't think i can take the withdrawls and depression like last time which lasted about 3 weeks...What the hell should I do? I've only been back 2 months on my everyday schedule, and larger doses on the weekends...sometimes 3 or 4.
Thank you to anyone that can shed some light on this situation, you were all there for me before and hopefully you'll be there again.

[tryn2quit]

Thank you for your support and good advice. I'm happy to say that I reduced the amount I started taking after my accident and hope to wean myself entirely off the enemy as "goingtomake it" puts it. They are the enemy, God Bless you all and good luck staying away.

[GoingToMakeIt]

   It has been said so many times. Getting clean is easy, staying clean is the hard part. Much of staying clean is a 'mind set'. Honesty helps too. Honesty with yourself and to those around you, including your Dr.! (have you told him yet?)
   When you had your accident, did you think to come here to get support while you were using for the pain? No! Well then, why not? It is probably because you weren't being honest to yourself. You know you have a weakness with these drugs. Did you think to treat them as your enemy? There really are, you know. Always have a healthy respect for your enemy. This is war, with you being what the war is about.
    We want you to win this war. That means take all the help, all the advice, all the knowledge about the drugs and addiction and use it to win the war.

[Peg626]

I have no advice except for STAY STRONG!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! I know it's hard & I've nearly slip & fell MANY MANY times. . . .but we will all be here for you through your journey. Remember how good you felt to be free of the prison that you're in when you're on that stuff??? You can be there again!!!

[JayR07]

The number after the slash is the acetamenophin.  This is the part that is hard on your liver.  I truly feel for those like you with legitimate pain that have to choose between pain or addiction.  Hopefully you'll heal up and won't need meds too much, but just weigh the benefits/risks and make the best decision.  Just remember how horrible opiates are for long-term use.  Tolerance is inevitable and pill-chasing ensues.  Take care.

[dominosarah]

I am sorry to hear about your accident.  Hope you are feeling better in that area.

You say "i dont think i can take the wd's and depression".  You are already setting yourself up for failure.  What will be the final outcome if you dont get clean?  You and i both know that answer.  Each relapse gets worse and worse, the dose gets higher until one day you are no longer here.  You have it in you to get clean again.  Start by saying "You CAN".....We will be here to support you.......sara