Hey Everyone, it has been a while since I last posted. I wanted to give everyone an update on what has transpired over that time. As I left off, I slipped up after 30 or so days clean but it didnt last! Against my belief, I decided to try suboxin since I couldnt stop making excuses to use. In the last (5) months I attempted to use suboxin periodically, not continually, as a craving fighter or something to satisfy those urges. Well, as we all know, suboxin is addictive and that occassional use turned into every day. After researching for many days and hearing the horror stories of sub WD I panicked and decided it was time to quit. I got 8 tramadol 50mg and did a taper. The very first day I felt uncomfortable and very exhuasted. I didnt sleep well at all. on the 4th day I took 50 mg of tramadol and then jumped off. I am now 6 days off subs and (2 days off fast tramadol taper) and finally have a good support system with a sober friend who is going to be my rock. He has been through a program and works it everyday. Even though last time I told the person who meant most to me, she could not help me through this because she has never exp addiction. I apologize for being out of touch for so long but work has been crazy, which is good and plus I was embarrased that I had to result to suboxin, especially, the last two months with the everyday use. I will say that it feels so different this time because its been so long since I took an oxy or lortab or percocet that the cravings are not there yet, I feel like I am learning how to handle everyday life without use and looking forward to a clean life. The only thing I feel right now is stomach issues and trouble sleeping but I am so blessed that is all I feel. I hope you all are not disappointed because at first I was. I vowed to never replace a drug for another and that is exactly what I did! On a good note, its been 5 months or so since I last used my DOC!