Taking a hot shower or bath just because it's enjoyable - and not out of desperation to relieve withdrawal symptoms.
To piggyback on rebels comments:
90 Being in jail because of our addiction.
91 After getting out of jail, doing the same illegal things again to get the meds.
92 Dealing with my legal problem with a clear head, knowing that there is light at the end of the tunnel.
93. 141 days and counting!!!
94. Resurecting all of those lost feelings and your ability to fight and win what you believe in, not what the drugs dictate.
We all have that inner strength, all you need to do is fight past the fog to find it and when you do, never let it go.
here's my personal favorite reasons for being clean:
++ not worrying about my husband getting arrested at the pharmacy for filling a script that was not legit.
+++never again having to tell my daughters that daddy's not comming home tonight because he IS in jail. (very low point).
++Caring about LIFE again
+++being proud of accomplishments done without the aid of drugs
++no more "puffy" lortab face
+++REMEMBERING things again.
To all still fighting: Keep the faith. It's worth it!
What a wonderful post. A brilliant contribution to the forum. All the best.
Someone on the social side was asking about benefits of being clean. So I am bumping this up.
this is just what i needed
83. being myself instead of pretending to be someone i am not....no more fake smiles and lies....no more looking in the mirror at my pupils wondering if anyone sees what i see....or faking all the tears at the doctors to get a stronger dose....no more begging....no more rambling on and on and everyone wondering why i talk sooo much or what the hell i am talking about
thankyou everyone today was a bad day for me thankyou soooo much
82. Looking forward to what each day brings, instead of dreading it.
finding time to clean or organize your house,papers, rooms, ect... without having to have something to motivate you to do it-.."if i get my meds i can finally do the taxes...then gettting the meds and not doing the taxes"!!!
not having to give your spouse or loved one something just so they can stay and talk, or so they can get thru their day!!
not praying anymore or really thanking the lord for all you have...and mean it -or not bargaining w/GOD to allow this one time to get u thru, ect
You are a scream! L O LLLL!!!!
Regular bowels.... its a good thing.. you are hilarious..
76 Sleeping normally, again.
77. Being true to yourself.
78. Having these good friends here, and knowing what you have
pooping again on a regular basis.. lol.
Boy can I relate to the Pharmacist thing. "well you know this is a very high dose..." And mine were legitimate Rxs. (Of course there was 2 different pharmacies...oops)
no more counting pills and checking over your shoulder,or suspecting ones around you for stealing from you
no more loaning out meds " to get your buddy thru' just till they get theirs back...then not getting them back
np more waking up sweaty,restless legs,and trying different supplements to fill the void till next script.
1) No more scoffing looks and undertoned voices from pharmacy techs and md office staff when picking up scripts early...or just picking up scripts!!!
2) no more "mommy's sick, go find something to do till daddy comes back w/mommys medicine."
3) no more..hot dogs and frozen dinners..time for that homemade meatloaf and real mashed potatoes..., AT THE TABLE!!!!
4) no more ..3-5 trips to the bathroom at work while everyones wondering "why is she so hyper"
Not there just yet. But really looking forward to being able to get out of bed w/o help from hydro. I used to get up @ 5am everymorning to go run. On the hydro's sometimes I would wake up elarly take 3 or 4 and lay back down until I could function.
I love this whole thread. It is so refreshing. Every reason I read I find myself going, "I know, I know! ya!!"
C'mon, Oxy.... you know ya wanna feel this....."You Can Do It"
this is such a wonderful btw.. i forgot to tell you that.. :-)
oxyaddict - you WILL have these things....
I have to agree with Magi .. laughing was the thing I missed the most. They were just kinda fake laughs on the pills, didn't really feal the laugh.
Laughing, really laughing
Not having to fear I might be the SECOND daughter my parents have to BURY because of drugs......
Too funny, I just told you on your post to read this one. I see you beat me to it.
somebody already wrote it....and its my favorite one that I want!
"Being able to experience Love" this sounds sooooo GOOD to me. For years now I just been alone, and cold hearted. Which has worked out because I cant get hurt...but thats no way to live right?
Well, come join us. All you have to do to be a member is to be clean. Hey even if you're on the road, that's good enough. :-)
Or are you just talking about keepthehope's new addiction? LOL