Blazin Blowin Drinkn and poppin..Its what i do... now how to i stop?

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I have been doing drugs since 9th grade. I started smoking freshman year and by junior year i was popping vikes before rock shows(I was in a band). that slowing progressed.. my junior year i was also one of the biggest weed dealers in my school. I thought it was cool to blaze 5 or 6 bongs before school with friends. Soon i started snortin them perKS. Since then ive blown coke a few times, smoked the finest cali trees, and sipped the finest wines. Life was great.

My band broke up. I now smoked my days away, i still jogged and went to the gym and everything. I also was snorting alot of pills. spending most of my checks on perKs and weed and anything else i could get my hands on.

I dont think blazing is such a big deal. its helped me open up my mind to other things that i wouldnt have opened my mind too. I could also freestyle lyrics like a mad man on the bowl. i was freesytling at live shows the dopest shitz i ever heard out of anybody.

Now i have no band i am going to college soon for music and art. But i think the pills have to stop its just that i think of stopping and then i snort a couple vikes and perks and im gone.I am still a year under 20 and havent been able to stop. i get pain in my side kidney area when i wake up and it doesnt go away until i blow again.

I needa stop because i repspect myself. but then i go back to my world surrounded in music and parties and i just cant cut loose. Im in good health.

Should i stop or should i keep going until i get sick of it. Im going to college in a couple months and i was hoping i wouldnt have time or the means to pop pills. Should i keep going and see if i get sick of it or should i stop immeadiately which ive been trying to do. but without emotional distress or anything i just pop em up without a second thought. So dont think its for attention. its just what i do.

can i still have music, babes, and the college life without drugs. Let me hear from some people that have been to college lately.

Thanks guys
Chill

This discussion is related to my boyfriends addiction.

PainKillsMe · Answer

Maybe I can shed some light.  My other passed away in March and I became sooooo disillusioned that it was the loss of her that made me crazy......until the last few days when I stopped and detoxed.  Today is day 5 for me and I feel like I can handle her death now.  I blamed all my problems on loosing my mother, but it was the Hydrocodones that was my problem.  Stop now before you can't and it controls your life like it did mine.  If I hadn't stopped this ****, we could have lost our house because we need my income and although I was only taking 4 pills a day, it was enough to mess big time with my mind.  I actually quit a job thinking I couldn't handle everything going on in my life.  It was the opiates.  Good luck.  This is a good place to start.  They helped me get off and hopefully stay off.

nuredshuz · Answer

dude, its going to catch you and bite you in the a$$!!! I hope you stop and SOON! that pain your having is being numbed cuz of your perc and vikes! you should get it checked out.. you should quit doing opiates cuz they have a way of turning it all around... you think you feel good and you do, but you keep doing more and more.. then you go from ok to nod.. then you need more.. pretty soon you dont get the energy, you start liking the nod.. then when your at that point your personality starts to do a slow fade... pretty soon you arent doing shiz.. your chillin all the time.. watching everyone else enjoy life wondering how in the he!! you got to this place when you used to be the life of the party and used to love to do stuff and hang with friends... now all you seem to be able to do is watch tv and think of all the reasons life is being bad to you... get out now befor you go down the path so many of us have been down... when you are at the end of that road it takes a few MONTHS to get back to yourself!!! your way too young to "f" yourself over that way... you have talents and you still have your spark... i encourage you big time to stop the opiates asap!!

SophieShine · Answer

OMG you have no idea how many musician I lost around me coz of dope. You seem to be able to function with pills and music but believe me it's not gonna last forever, you gonna lose it all to addiction...
I so do wish you're ready to quit.
Best of luck to you. xoxoxo. sophie.

dominosarah · Answer

If you dont stop what you are doing you wont have any music, babes or college.  You ask if you should quit or wait until you are sick of it.....How sick of this are you?  You have to want this more than anything else.  I hope and pray you are ready.......we will be here to support you.......sara