Hey mayberry.........glad to see things are going well for you. Slowly and surely moving forwards to being completely clean! Damn good job.
Things are ok here in Louisiana. N/A is still struggling a bit to get back up and running as the "isolation" of covid was a perfect breeding ground for addicts to stay home and not reach out. We had 12 regular home group members before Covid and we're down to 6. Some have gone back out to use and some have just disappeared. But, we open every Monday and Wednesday b/c I know there will come a time when everyone realizes that recovery is what's needed to continue not using.
Today make 7 years..........5 months..........and 27 days Clean.........but who's counting (obviously me!!!)
I hope everyone is doing well and that we all come out of this Covid nightmare safely.
Melissa B.
I don’t know what made me come here today.. I guess on a rainy Memorial Day weekend I became reflective after watching a documentary on HBO about the opioid crisis called “Crime of the Century”... it triggered me on thinking about the path I took to sobriety for some reason and this page was a huge part of it. I’ve been clean for a long time now from a pretty big roxy habit. During those times I would come here to read, learn, and try to help others as I navigated the rocky road to recovery relapsing then putting together a few months then relapsing again, so on and so on... Then it just clicked, i relapsed then got back on the horse AGAIN and and never went back.. weird, how all of a sudden I just stopped.. Believe me, I’m not questioned it, I’m not complaining and IT WASN’T EASY but for some reason it clicked and I’m thankful, great full, and whatever other word or words of gratification you can think of would describe how I feel about breaking the insidious cycle of opioid addiction. I’ll tell you one thing, a small piece of it always stays with you but it WILL become manageable I guess the best way to describe it is as a reversal of dominance, meaning you become the master of it INSTEAD of it being the master of you.. it takes time and patience like anything else in life but ITS SOOOOO WORTH IT.. I don’t count my time because, well I just don’t... to me it like watching paint dry or grass grow but that’s me, but it been years since I last used and that’s all that matters because I DO NOT USE ANYMORE, period! Anyway, yes I can see there isn’t chatter on here anymore like their used to be. On the other hand I still see some familiar names..so if any of you remember me, I just want to say hello and it’s good see your names still here and being about 8 years since I’ve been on here it’s impressive that you are all still here helping others... i wish all of you the best and to those struggling keep fighting, learning and whatever you do DO NOT EVER GIVE UP because you never know when it may click..
Real
I don’t know what made me come here today.. I guess on a rainy Memorial Day weekend I became reflective after watching a documentary on HBO about the opioid crisis called “Crime of the Century”... it triggered me on thinking about the path I took to sobriety for some reason and this page was a huge part of it. I’ve been clean for a long time now from a pretty big roxy habit. During those times I would come here to read, learn, and try to help others as I navigated the rocky road to recovery relapsing then putting together a few months then relapsing again, so on and so on... Then it just clicked, i relapsed then got back on the horse AGAIN and and never went back.. weird, how all of a sudden I just stopped.. Believe me, I’m not questioned it, I’m not complaining and IT WASN’T EASY but for some reason it clicked and I’m thankful, great full, and whatever other word or words of gratification you can think of would describe how I feel about breaking the insidious cycle of opioid addiction. I’ll tell you one thing, a small piece of it always stays with you but it WILL become manageable I guess the best way to describe it is as a reversal of dominance, meaning you become the master of it INSTEAD of it being the master of you.. it takes time and patience like anything else in life but ITS SOOOOO WORTH IT.. I don’t count my time because, well I just don’t... to me it like watching paint dry or grass grow but that’s me, but it been years since I last used and that’s all that matters because I DO NOT USE ANYMORE, period! Anyway, yes I can see there isn’t chatter on here anymore like their used to be. On the other hand I still see some familiar names..so if any of you remember me, I just want to say hello and it’s good see your names still here and being about 8 years since I’ve been on here it’s impressive that you are all still here helping others... i wish all of you the best and to those struggling keep fighting, learning and whatever you do DO NOT EVER GIVE UP because you never know when it may click..
Real
Wow !!!! I have never talked online to anyone about anything in my life, but this is amazing to see!! I am
struggling badly with the worst benzo on earth (we all know what that is) mixed with heavy black out drinking, and
adderall, and sleeping pills and anything to get me social and not caring. But im looking for advice from people
who have been through this. I am losing everything over this. I cant keep a boyfriend bc im crazy when I black out
apparently.. I say very mean things and dont remember. Its to the point where I hide my phone from myslef when I
know im about to be at that level so I dont say anything too ugly to the wrong people on a rampage . I want out of
this cycle so badly. I am 41 years old and have so much potential to do great things. Im blessed with youth and
brains and motivation...But this little devil won't leave my life! Please help me to not be so discouraged and give me
a little guidance on how to make a life change and make it stick like you have :) ! Its harder than I thought :/ Days
seem so long and hard trying to come off things and no-one to help or support me really . Its consuming me and
giving me the worst anxiety. I see no end in sight. Been struggling since I was 22 so a long time . Just now realizing
its time to get this chapter behind me before I end up really with nothing and no one. I cant live this way anymore.
It sucks...and I feel like an outcast, and like 'im so crazy amongst all these normal relaxed people, who dont see why
im so hung up on this. I envy everyone else's calm outlook on life while im stuck daily obsessing over my
addictions and if Im ever going to be able to walk amongst the happy normal people again. Im isolating myself bc I
feel weak and stupid. And I get depressed bc days become months and years and I dont do anything fun anymore.
Just get ****** up all the time, and if I did have fun who cares bc i dont even remember anyways. I want to join my
friends I dont have one day soon and be a happy individual. Make the most of life and this isn't it. The fact that i
am young and full of spirit and have no friends says it all. Im wasting away. :( Please give me some advice