confession

[mojorisin64]

well i am 66 days now i think off oxys,have some stress goin on (trigger trigger) just kind of brain tired you know..so someone i know is on adderall and i knew they were some kind of speed and i took some...2 1/2 of 20 mg...so of course they worked just fine and then i couldnt sleep,finally fell asleep aroung midnite and have been awake since 4 am...i just feel stupid for even doing this...i know better but i was thinking since its not oxys its ok...i am not doing this again but i feel so guilty ..

[Sunnyd210]

Ohhhhhhh yeah I dont even like the feeling of some cold medicines. Its funny cause I never thought I would meet a pill I didnt like.... LMAO!!!!

[mojorisin64]

well its an amphetamine used for add....so if you dont have add it'll make you speed...i wouldnt reccomend it lol..i still feel wired...

[Sunnyd210]

OHhhhhhh Mojo Im sending you a GREAT BIG HUGGGGG!!!!! Now let me ask a stupid question and please dont make fun of ur blonde friend hehehehe but what is Adderall???

[dominosarah]

I agree with TysonRed......exercise is a great destresser!!!  I walk to work everyday and back again.

[TysonRed]

I know it sounds like a broken record, but some sort of consistant excercise can really help during stressful times. I was never someone who liked to workout, matter of fact I hated it, but after about 6wks of 3 times weekly, I found that my depression, stress and anxiety levels almost disappeared. Its become somewhat of an addiction for me now, I literally cant wait to go to the gym, or even a long walk, its just makes you feel some much better about yourself. Im sure you've all heard it before, but it really done wonders for me during my recovery. I wish you all the best, keep up the good work, congrats on day 66, take care.

[Believer1179]

I definately know how hard it gets when stressed......ALL the crazy triggers go off. And it's hard as hell to not use something. i also know what it's like to think, ok, as long as I'm not using that certain drug. Sorry you went through that.

But it's over and not that big of a deal. But dont do it again. You've worked too hard!

CONGRATS ON DAY 66!!!  You and I are so close together in our recover! And I have been struggling reall hard with mine lately. Hmmmmmm.........

STAY STRONG!
Jen

[dominosarah]

Stay with it mojo......stress is a part of life and we have to learn to deal with it being clean.  Identify those triggers.  Glad you came on here and talked about it.
Congrats on 66 days!!!!

I would like a mixture of roses.....reds, pinks, yellows!!!!!

[mojorisin64]

roses to everyone!!!  @------------- @-------------@---------------

[sway1]

we gotta send giz a nice bouquet or something??

[mojorisin64]

awww you guys....i was debating whether or not to even say anything but i didnt want to feel like a hippocrit...but after i read what you all said the knot in my stomach went away...thank you so much..and while i did enjoy it for a while yesterday i had visions of this progressing to meth (missouri is the meth capitol)...thats how my brain works....and im thinking gee now i need to add another tracker...gizzy you have missed your calling,you are such a natural therapist/psychiatrist whatever you want to call it,you are just so down to earth even tho you like to beat up girls all the time lol..and no you cant do crack,youd get too skinny for the calender hehe
sway and danny,you guys will do it...thank you again..

[Danny750]

Stress will do it. I worked till about 10:30 last night and normally I'd pop a couple at a time at that point. I'm glad I had nothing or no one around me with anything becuz who knows what would happen. Make sure people around you who know don't bring anything near you. Keep it all away. 66 days is awesome. I look forward to posting that myself

[sway1]

i forgive you. i used to get one of those every once in a while to help me get stuff done when i had no energy and then feel like ****. not sleep, teeth hurt from grinding. just remember how it made you feel stupid and guilty so you don't do it again. 66 days is awesome! in my thinking, what you did is not relapse. stay strong. peace.   sway

[gizzy32]

MOJO! Stress can be one of the worst triggers for us. As addicts we look to get high to cope in stressful times and it doesn't matter what we use, it can become a problem so be careful. Glad your not doing it again or I will kick your ***, hehe. Congrats on those 66 days. So would it be ok for me to smoke crack instead of sniffing lines? Your a friend and your sense of humor cracks me up so lets keep that lil mojo brain clear, lol.