hey...im prolly the baby here only on day 12...but I'm 58 and been using many many yrs. the first 2 days were the usuall hell, but nothing I couldn't handle, every day seems lil bit better, but still getting it in waves that don't last that long, the worse right now is the anxiety...when I say that I meen the feeling you get inside like you could run 10 miles but your body wont let you,racing heart,the jitters... sweaty hands are not as bad, nite sweats are 50% gone, but today I choose not to use......
HI guys! I'm still around! I hit my year mark on Sept 19th, I'm a year off the suboxone and almost three years off oxycodone. My life is right on track and in the beginning coming off the suboxone, I thought I was ruined for life. The support from here and my family got me where I am and where I will continue to be. We are going to Disney World Tuesday. In the past I wouldn't even think about going away, worried I'd run out of pills. I'm so thankful for getting clean!
Congrats to you 2 above posters on your clean time!! You are both doing great!!
Sjs...your fiance is going into recovery?
Congrats on your 2 years almost 3 ,, im on 157 days clean.
Hi, I am Shannon...I can't remember the exact date of my last pill, but I do know (thanks to my handy dandy clean time tracker) that it was 105 days ago! June 2016. Doesn't sound like a lot of clean time, but it's my clean time. I'm very glad I came to this site, as it helped me to get through and to not take my "next script" from my doctor. I had been through this crap more than I can say, and the last time was the last time. There is a line from a song that I think fits alot of us, "This learning to live again, is killing me," but you know what, we all rise again, free and loving ourselves and others more than we could have imagined. I attend a "life recovery" group in my rural little town. There are 7 of us total in the group, and we are addicts of all different kinds. I love it, and I love my people! I have started going back to church (not every Sunday I'll admit, but I'm getting there). My baby just turned 2 yesterday and he is my reason for everything. I have started eating healthier and love my evening walks...thinking about starting yoga to help my mind, body and my panic attacks! I have a great job that I really enjoy and engaged to a wonderful man, but he is an alcoholic that is starting his recovery! Soon we will be living a free, happy, healthy life. That's my story!
Dominosarah...he's not going to recovery, he is in an alcohol program and he is working steps and they have 3 phases. He has about another month and a half left and after that, he has to do aftercare for a couple months I think and then he is done with it. He's only going because he is on felony probation and got violated for drinking and the court ordered him to do this program so he doesn't really take it serious and doesn't think it applies to him because he wouldn't be doing it if he didn't HAVE to. He gets urine tested every week and is allowed to miss a couple days a month so he has figured out that he can drink on Saturday, skip the Monday class and have the alcohol out of his system by Thursday when he gets his urine test. I hate it. He will still be on probation when he gets done and he has 2 years left on probation but then he goes back to just meeting with his probation officer once a month and his PO doesn't urine test him very often so we will see if he goes back to full on drinking again. If he does, I've made up my mind that he is going to lose his family. And if he wants me and the baby back, then he is going to have to do AA and get completely sober and NOT drink at all because I can't handle him when he drinks and I can't handle the stress and anxiety and the way he acts towards me when he's drunk. It's sad, but I've already been putting up with it for 4 1/2 years and I don't want my baby growing up in that kind of environment, it's not healthy. And thank you for your congratulations on MY clean time :)
First I want to say I love this site and the people on here I lurked for yrs thinking I will never get off this pills my back is to bad I need them deep Inside I knew I was hooked on them running out early counting them trying to get them filled early well guess what I don't need them I'm a few days away from 90 days clean I'm alive again I'm smiling again I'm not just getting by if I did it anyone cam it wasn't easy but if you want it you cam achieve it
I am so proud of you 2!! Congrats to both of you on your clean time.
I cleaned up April 28th, 2008. I changed my playmates and playground and now only surround myself with those that are supportive of me and my recovery. I have some wonderful friends from NA and AA. I have a sponsor who is a tough old girl and tells me what i need to hear. I am also blessed to be a part of MH and all the ones i have met. Life throws me curve balls every now and then but i deal with it head on. I am always amazed at the lessons i still learn everyday. I am blessed to have the family i do and am now married to my best friend. You dont have to live in the grips of addiction. There is a life out here with your name on it.
Melissa, glad you started this girl. I'm Jill and I have 2 years and 3 1/2 months clean. Same here, jumped into meetings because I was so DONE w/ using, I couldn't stand it one more second. I am very serious about my program. It's not hard, just gotta be willing. Life on life's terms is not easy and I'm not having an easy time. But centering my entire existence around pills was the lowest, most self-destructive, most dignity-sapping life imaginable and I will happily avoid that. So yeah...that!