Hi, This is the first time i have ever come online for help as I'm the kind of person who likes my privacy & like to do things on my own. I do however feel as apart of my rehab I do something l,ike this.
I am currently on 3mg of xanax (alprazolam) a day, I was on 6-7mg a yr ago. Its taken this long to come down but at the time I was addicted to heroin, Morphine and methadone. I have had 7, Yes 7. Naltrexone treatments and countless re-treatments.
I am now on methadone again(it works 4 me) doing what they call a blind detox. I asked for it as I know it works. Ive started to take more control over my life and have been clean from any illicit drugs for well over 1 year now. BUT...
I still hate the idea of being hooked on anything! I was once locked up while addicted to opiates and xanax and valium! And given nothing for 2 days.
(It was the worst 2 days of my living life) I mean Ive done the rapid detox b4 and given narcan and all that, But I cant begin to tell you how severe the withdrawal process was! This has contributed to me wanting to be completely drug free as it was such a frightening feeling. But it's also given me a long term panic disorder. Imagine being thrown away with a monster habit with a bunch of criminals (like that wasn't bad enough in itself) I was locked up for 1 of the most common problems ever!(parking fines) Yes, FINES! can you believe that? My advice if your addicted to anything! PAY ALL DEBTS! Anyway this is a little about me. I'm here to support anybody who's addicted to anything.
I also quit cigarrettes the day I quit heroin. It was just easy given how sick I felt at the time. Now my routine consists of getting up, trying to go without anything, And when I feel sick and withdrawn. Only then do I take a quarter of a pill. That gets my by until the next spell which is usually 4-5 hours later. This is not living and I know that, But its better than not caring like I used to be. I now also suffer hepatitis C. And am currently on a waiting list for interferon treatment. I hope someone can share their story with me, and let me know Im not the only one suffering=) Kindly urs.