Crack use

[Johndeer1]

It's hurting my chest real bad an under my left arm real   But the pain goes away over night then I go do it again  an the gets worse each time am I fixing to have a heart attack

[Johndeer1]

Thank you alot

[BanMethadone]

woooohooo, you go Jonh! Now you are really getting your mind moving in the RIGHT direction. In the direction of investing in, rather than detracting from your strength as a human being. You are also so right in getting to a meeting. Sitting inside and being idle, as crappy as you may feel, can really leave a lot of room for talking yourself out of sobriety. Stay out of your own head, as many would say. The world of action is much more conducive to recovery, than the world of thought. Your brain is trained to have obsessive thoughts about your drug of choice, and you have got to do anything to break that cycle.

I personally want to hear about you going to the gym. The gym and working out has been so freaking therapeutic for me, and I want people do do it bc I know it works. If I don't do it for many days, I fall back into very negative thoughts and feelings. That natural high and feeling of well being is REAL, but you have to work for that rewards. It's not instant, but it is much longer lasting and so damn satisfying.

Just remember it takes time. In your weak moments, come on here and do anything that will get you through.

We are here!

[Johndeer1]

I have found  a meeting rt here in town    I'm sure I will know every one in the meeting  small town population 3000

[Johndeer1]

I'm going heal up for 7 days then go  back to the gym again  that's my goal

[Johndeer1]

If I can make it 9pm  I be safe from crack the rest of the day I never go out past 9pm    My  wife would no something's up     I'm trying to stay on this iPad  keeps my mined busy      So I probly be writing more post today

[Johndeer1]

I guess that's a story I wrote     Hope I put it in the write place

[10356]

You can tell your story here our start a new thread as Sara said our even journal it.. You will find your way around the next few days :) I hope you get that pain checked our John.

[Johndeer1]

Ok  I'm doing it now

[10356]

Hi John It sure sounds to me you have a habit.. When you say no more and you still takes hits then you have a habit you can not control. When you take a hit the pain goes away ? It would be much better if you went to the clinic and found out what the problem is so you can have it fixed.. Then no more worry.. we all have got to the point our drugs do not get us high anymore then it is just money down the drain money to make us feel Normal Something we can do for free when we stop the drugs. Hope you give it some thought into quitting it would extend your life and allow more joy in.. lesa

[dominosarah]

Go to the top of the page and hit the orange box that says Post a Question, just like you did with this thread.  We want to get to know you better so we can help you stop this dangerous cycle you are in.

[Johndeer1]

I'm not a comptroller person lol   I always leave words   As ya can  see

[Johndeer1]

Were do I tell my story     I don't understand what ya mean   I will tell it once I understand   What ya mean    Thanks for your reply  I'm still learning how to find we're yaw responded  so far I just keep hitting boxes tell I find the responses I'm computer person     lol thanks

[Johndeer1]

I used a little today already   Pains not bad because I takes such small hits  it's just a waist of money  all it does is make my heart beat faster theirs no hi involved at all anymore  maybe it's turned into a habit of smoking cig. Now  even thow I don't smoke  I dip snuff  

[nursegirl6572]

I echo the sentiments posted above.

Listen hon, cocaine is one of the most dangerous drugs out there.  It causes VERY real, and VERY serious health complications, including heart attacks, strokes, bleeding problems (including brain bleeds).  Your symptoms are absolutely NOTHING to ignore.  There are people who have dropped dead or suffered irreversible brain damage with only minimal coke use.  

Even if you don't experience those symptoms again, you still need to get checked out medically ASAP, because the damage has already been done.  Stopping using is GREAT, and I hope you're still clean, but even if you NEVER take another hit, you still could have very serious medical issues.  You need to get that checked, and deal with it before it becomes something that cannot be fixed.  

PLEASE get yourself to a doctor or the hospital (preferably, so they can do comprehensive testing), and then get yourself involved in some kind of aggressive recovery program.  Inpatient would be great, but outpatient will work too.  Whichever kind of recovery program you choose will be successful if you give it your all and do the work that needs done on YOU.

My thoughts are with you, PLEASE post to let us know how you're doing, even if it isn't so great,  We're here to support you and help you.  We can't do that if you don't talk to us.  I'm glad you found your way here.  Time to get your life back, don't you think?

[BanMethadone]

Hi John:

I hope you post more on your progress and success in abstaining. The symptoms you described are incredibly scary, to be sure.

Anyway welcome and please let us know how you are!

[ROSYouralright]

Hey John, WELCOME!
How are you feeling now? Did you hit a meeting?

I pray that you will get checked out by a doctor... Those are scary symptoms you described.

[spider6]

Hey John, hope you're still with us.  Come back and tell us how you're doing.  

[dominosarah]

I am so glad you came back here and are talking with us.  We all know how hard this can be but living clean is really fulfilling.  How did the meeting go?

[10356]

I'm really glad you are still with us The symptoms you had were scarey.. So have you managed not to take a hit ? This is a great place full of addicts active and in recovery all helping/supporting each other in getting clean. I'm glad you found us ! I hope you stay around and tell a lil about yourself. You telling your story helps the next person that comes along looking to get their life back..

[Johndeer1]

I think  this web site  I found   Is helping also       I was kind of surprised   When    I got 4 reply s    Their is folks out there who cares

[Johndeer1]

Thank you   So much  for your reply       Yes i been doing great the last 2 days   Hard not to use     When I think of all the pain    It helps not to use  I found  some meetings about :30 min from home   I going to check it out      Thank you

[Johndeer1]

I'm doing great today    It's hard not to use     When I think of the pain   It makes a little easer   Not to use      Thank ya for your reply

[10356]

Hi Johndeer.. Hope you did not take that hit, I was hoping we would see you back here. Did you have that pain checked out ? It could be very serious like a heart attack a infection in your lung torn something who knows til you get it checked, Anyway I dislike seeing any life thrown away as you are doing yours and was hoping you would come back and give it a go, Ya know. Getting your life back. Your health. Getting clean.. I wish you a Good life, lesa

[Johndeer1]

I just woke up   For a moment checked my emails   Going back to sleep   Now     I'm doing great     Thank you  all pain is gone    But if take a small hit today     The pain comes back hopefully I want use today    I won't say I won't    Because I always say I won't to myself   I let ya now tonight how I did today  thank ya for caring