Day 2

[Givitup]

Day 1 felt decent emotionally.  Just kind of unmotivated and not really enjoying anything.  Headache all day and tired.  Ended up taking a 3 hour nap!!  All not too bad and then I went to sleep at 9 and had RLS til midnight.  It was awful.  I was not a heavy Vicodin taker.  Sixty a month and I usually ran out.  This has been about a six year daily thing.  Sadly I am still trying to convince that I need to just stop.  I still have a thought in the back of my mind that they help.  Anyone else feel this way in the beginning?  

[Givitup]

Thank you for thinking of me!  I had to actually think about what day I was on.  So I am doing great.  Emotionally part got really hard but rode the wave.  I am working with a therapist and a life coach who works with addiction.  This is working for me.  I do not feel feel N/a is a fit for right now.  Nothing against 12 step groups.   I know they help a lot of people.  Thanks for all the support.  Just getting the secret out there was a huge help!!  And just knowing so many others are on a the same journey helps a lot too!

[gnarly_1]

hi  well it is day 5 for you  you should start to feel better  time to put some form of aftercare in place  N/A has been the magic bullet for me the meetings are only a hour long and will give you some place to share where the people will understand...right now the withdrawal is fresh in your mind but the addict is still alive and well in your head  it is critical that you put some form of aftercare in place  those that goes to meetings  tend to stay clean..... keep posting for support
.....................................................Gnarly........................

[gnarly_1]

Hey congrats onday 3 your doing great.....epsom salt in the bath will help with the restless legs ....I got it in my arms as well....its great you have a plan for aftercare  this truly is a life changing experience  I have tryed the addiction therapist a substance abuse counselor  but it wasent until I tryed N/A that I found recovery...all kept me clean but N/A is the only progam that I know of that with time and working the steps you will loose the very desire to use.....something I thought was impossible...  if you can google a N/Meeting near you and go  it has saved my life  keep posting here for support  in a couple of days you will start to feel a lot better
..............................................Gnarly.....................

[Givitup]

Thank you! I no longer have the RLS and I also had them in my arms.  Day 4 and I am feeling better!  

[Jig29]

Ok! Now I'm laughing with you guys!! I would do the same thing! I would hide them or when I would go on a business trip I would purposely only bring a few but then one time I panicked and ended up cutting my trip short! Just so I could get to my pills!! Needless to say I never did that again!  What a CRAZY!! Addiction this is!!  

Givitup, keep up the good work!! Your on the right path!! I only have 8 days clean, but I do know that this is just the beginning of the rest of my life!

Stay strong!!!

[Givitup]

Thanks!!  It is such a crazy addiction.   The stories are just so funny.   Good we can laugh!

[jifmoc]

Hi, and welcome back. I'm sure you'll see a pattern after you read many posts and answers. People come on here, panicked about detox, but when the detox is over, many disappear. Then, later, they come back, asking for the same help again. Here it is: if you get into recovery, and do what is suggested, you will stay clean. There really isn't any other magic that those w/ clean time have vs those that don't. People who have achieved clean time work a program. That's it. You mentioned your alcohol addiction, too. Many are addicted to one substance, stop, then substitute with another. Hope you begin your recovery asap. Stick around:)

[Givitup]

Thank you!  I have alway had one or sometimes both. Alcohol caused me a lot more problems.   I convinced myself I was okay with Vicodin.  He'll convinced myself it was good for me and I needed it.  Didn't feel that way counting pills and fear I would run out and always did eventually.  But always had backup plans.  Sick of trying to fill scrips early only to feel shame and depressed when they say it's too early or giving my doctor some story.  Hiding pills when even. Couldn't find them! Putting them in hard to reach places so I would think first.  That never worked.  I even thought about mailing them to my house to force a couple of days to not take any or hide them in my husbands car when he went on a business trip again to force time.  I always took them out before he left as panic set in.  How is that for crazyess. Helps me too see it all written down.  This runs deep and it's been one big secret life.  I have zero cravings for alcohol thank God!    Pills convinced me I need them to do life at my full potential which I know is a bunch of crap.  Day 2 was good in as I got a lot done even after a 2 1/2 hr nap.  Praying for a restful night.  

[jifmoc]

I'm laughing because I actually did that: I mailed pills to myself in an attempt to control my usage.  I recall sharing that in a meeting once and everyone laughed. But they all understood. I did every last thing you listed and then some. If I have a dollar for every time I lied to a doctor to get pills I could buy a new car. It's great not having to be involved in any of that craziness anymore. I'm lucky I never got arrested for forging and altering 'scripts.

What are your thoughts on recovery? Will you start?

[Givitup]

Now I'm laughing because I never told anyone about my mailing idea and love that you actually did that!  I will be working with a life coach who deals with this and also an addiction therapist.  I have worked with him before but never mentioned the pill thing.

[jifmoc]

Good. Glad you are doing something. Btw, I mailed pills to myself several times, and one time I was waiting for the mail (desperately) and nothing came. I went to the Post office in a panic. Nothing. Next day, nothing. They never came. Talk about the universe trying to tell me something.

Make sure you have access to NONE. You won't be successful w/o it.

[Givitup]

I could almost feel that panic with the pills not showing up.  Crazy how a little frecking pill can have so much power!   On to day 3.   RLS was better last night which I am grateful for since I have to go to work today!

[Givitup]

I could picture you going to the post office.  Hey what happened to pills I mailed to myself! LOL

[Givitup]

I could picture you going to the post office.  Hey what happened to pills I mailed to myself! LOL

[jifmoc]

Ha ha, you know we addicts are way slicker than that! It's "I was expecting a package, it's an emergency! Find it!" Ugh, ridiculous.

Thanks for bringing this up. It's a necessary reminder of how horrible it was.

[Givitup]

Thank you for making me laugh!!! Day 4!  Bring it on!!  

[VICourageous]

Hi Givitup.

I noticed you have been on this site since 2007 and your last post was back in 2008. At least you have been on long enough to read many others that have posted on here and see the ones who stick around.

Even if you where at a very low dose, it is how many yrs you have been on these. Are you still on the Ferinol w/cod? You do know that if you come off these that you should slowly taper back. Or, if you choose to just stop, you also know that the w/ds are going to be a bit more intense.
I had done some research about giving up any Substance and they claim we go through a Grieving kind of period. Feels like we are giving up our (so called) best friend. Ha! Was not much of a friend for me after I got so hooked. Anyway, you will go through some physical and then comes the mental. I am sure you have read enough on here to know the drill.
Have you found anything more natural or OTC that will help with your pain?
Make sure you start to drink tons of fluids right now. This will help flush some of the chemicals out. Let us know what or how you are going to do this, or if you are going to come clean. YOU know we are here for YOU!
Bless
Vickie

[Givitup]

Not on the fiornol codeine and just dropped off the site.  Wasn't ready I guess. Will need to read up on old posts.   Feeling more emotional today.  Did go cold turkey thinking it would be fine.  Physically it is doable.  Mentally and emotionally is harder.  Just want to sleep or rest but getting in two walks a day.  Had one small panic yesterday where I did what I call a sweep.  Look everywhere for a pill I may have dropped.  I thought look at what you are doing!!!  It was quick and I quickly got over it.  This is my journey so far  As for pain taking ibuprofen.  May eventually get a block in my neck which doc has suggested.  Just want to be substance free.  Was back on alcohol for 5 years and now have 9 weeks.  I had zero problem stopping.  This is much harder for me.    I will continue on this site.  Thank you for responding.