Day 3 and feeling like a bratty todler!

[amers860]

This is a real Mind F***. I don't know what to do w myself. I always have off on Tuesday. Today I wld have contacted a friend for a blueberry AKA 30mil perc. I would have taken it along w my prescribed Lortabs and floated blissfully through my house cleaning it from top to bottom. I don't feel like doing a damn thing w o a buzz. No cleaning, no cooking, no FBing, no decorating for xmass. Nothing is fun w o the high I'm so desperately craving! And I'm pissed off about it! Pissed off at myself and jealous of other ppl who find joy in ANYTHING while being sober! Oh and I also spent the last 20minutes licking blue residue off anything I could find w it on. Jewelry boxes, pill containers, straws, razor blade, plastic baggys! Yeah, I'm a real classy gal!

[vicki595]

There's no hard and fast rule...It depends on you. Mostly, on this forum, folks reset their tracker. I did that but it's up to you. If it happens again or several more times (which it may...this is a process) then constantly setting back the tracker can feel very defeating.

If you want to stay clean...you need to get a little tough in the neighborhood! LOL  It's all around you and hard to resist,I know. What are you thinking about doing?

I'll tell you quickly(this was funny): We had a member who was hell bent on quitting. He didn't flush his pills; he threw them off the upstairs balcony. They landed on the roof of the next door building. It became late in the day and all he could see was that bottle of pills. It drove him crazy. Soooo, he decided to go on that roof but it was late by that time so he had to climb up the side of the building(all doors were locked). He had a hard time and it took him 2 hours to get to the top but he finally got them. And then he fell while climbing down. He was okay but it's always better to flush!!

[wishfulthinking57]

Also for any rebound pain you may be feeling, try a hot shower or a hot bath with epsom salt.  For lack of any sleep, I was drinking sleepy time tea before bed and that also helped a great deal.  

[free2626]

you really need to stay strong.....i was in your same situation and I got on a suboxone program to take away the w/d symptoms from opiates....well now Im going through the w/d of suboxone its day 2 and it really *****.....there is no easy way out...its mostly the habit and your atmosphere the best way to start is to start some sort of exercise program which really helps lessen the w/d process...next is to stay positive and turn to people that love you and support you completely....tell all your enablers to not sell you anything no matter what you say to them....and stay strong!! drug free is a chance at life and such a rewarding thing something NO pill can ever give you!!  You will make it:) O and its ok to cry it a way of healing...

[wishfulthinking57]

Try taking L-tyrosine, vitamin b-6, and a multivitamin.  Helped me a great deal through my first 2 weeks.  Those, along with determination and forcing myself to do every day-to-day things (ie: gym, cleaning, work, cooking, etc) lead to me feeling better and happier then I did the entire year of me using.  The first 3-4 days were the hardest for me, and for many others as well they would tell you once you make it past the 3rd or 4th day, it is all downhill from there (downhill in the good way :D ).  

[amers860]

My husband knows but he doesnt seem to want to see the severity of it and the consequences of me traveling down this path. He loves to see me through rose colored glasses. He strongly beleives in the motto "happy wife, happy life" and if a pill makes me happy so be it. I told him I'm physically dependant. I have never used the term addict. I told him I'm having wd symptoms from my prescription. I havnt told him I buy stronger pills too. I use my prescription to feel good/normal. I buy pills and combine them w my script to get high. I blew it last night. A friend brought 5 vics over for me just bc. He did'nt want payment. They were left over from his dental work. He doesn't like them and new I would. I took 3 then my husband put the rest in his safe. Only after I asked him to do it. He would have let me take the rest. Yesterday would have been day 3 for me. I guess I reset the clock. Not sure how that works though.

[amers860]

I pried up a deck board for a 30mil perc that dropped through the cracks. I wld hav deff took that fuzzy washed pill too! NO DOUBT! lol..oh boy :/
littlebit...I have to laugh at my situation or I will cry about it..for sure. I think its good to laugh we all know its serious but laughing helps.