Please let me know what everyone thinks

[chaddavis333]

I came to some serious conclusions. I am an addict, I know what a surprise, but that doesn't mean I am - a bad person. After test after test all coming back,ok, I don't think if I have ms. I have a lot of the symptoms, even now as I type this my whole head is tingling. I never got an mri, but apparently my doc, doesn't think I need one. I have seen several people talk about how anxiety has the same symptoms. So, I going to say that's what I have. Here is where all,my friends can help. Please tell me if you had headaches while coming off heavy use of opiates, mine was loperamide. If so, what were they like? Also, everyone keeps telling me, it's sti withdrawal. What does that mean? I understand it means that I am going through withdrawals still, but does that mean, that's why my anxiety level is so high. I know you guys always answer the same things over and ovef, but when you are surrounded by people who don't believe you, what else can I do, but ask,my friends are on here. Could this drug unleash this panic monster that wakes me at 430 am on the dot with a pounding heart rate be causing all this. I mean I always had a little health anxiety, but it was ok, until this. I just wonder if that is what the problem is? Is that why i am thinking all these doom,and gloom thoughts, getting all these test, because my health anxiety is on full blast?? I just never had tingling before from anxiety. Its been a horrible 2 months, and I won't be back again. I still wonder why i went into withdrawal while I was still taking. My brain says it's ms or tumor, because of the horrible headaches and tingling. Of course an mri would find that, but after spending 5000 since this started, I can't and no-one will order for me. Also in have no copays my insurance won't do nothing until I reach 10,000 dectubile. It *****. So, pleas tell me your thoughts. Neveragain, spider, sarah, gnarly, and all my other friends, Thank you for caring So much to,reapond. No one understands but you, I do pray and believe in God and His Son. I even have even put scripture on my dash to remeber How promises. He may have used this aweful season to get my attention.
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[spider6]

Lol, submission*. Omission

[spider6]

Chad, I hate to say this hon but you are going to have to have "faith".....in time.  None of us wants to hear that but honestly that's all we have.  Whether you chose to torture yourself obsessing about time and it's constrictions that directly test your faith, or you torture yourself obsessing about your body and what you think it SHOULD be doing or not doing while it's trying to heal itself.  The only control you have is to "let go" .......

If you pray or meditate or think in any reflective way at all ....then give it to the universe or God or whatever that means to you...give it up, away .....you have no control.  You only have control over how you react to your thoughts. You have the control.  

I'm reluctant to post much these days because I feel I may hinder newbies if they thought that after two years they may still not be what they thought they should be...(back to normal) ....I'm someone that doesn't know what my normal is cuz I've been "medicated" for the last 42 years. (I still smoke pot.....a LOT of pot). It's nothing I'm proud of (the pot), but since I'm on public forum I might as well be honest...this is not a place to even lie by submission IMO as Peeps take the grass smokers very seriously here.  I don't blame them, I'd feel the same way if it were any other drug too.

Anyway......it's NOT been all posies, rainbows and aha moments of clarity and resolve ...not a f*ckn chance!...BUT....it's been BETTER in EVERY way off "pills and booze" than it ever was on them.  And it IS getting better day by day, month by month......just not exactly where I thought I'd be. ...but how could I know right?...I have nothing to compare it to since I was 14 when I started altering.

Btw, I'm depressive, I'm reluctant to say bipolar as I was once branded, as now I just don't know.  What I do know is..I started medicating at the age of 14 to deal with it and "14" is unfortch where I have had to pick it up again these last two years.....IT BE HARD MAN!

It takes a long time for our brains to regenerate.....the longer you altered it, the substance and amount you altered it with, your pre existing emotional/mental state before using.  Your age starting/stopping.  

Get away from your search engines for awhile.... Your ego/addict brain are scr*wing with you big time.

Prayers bud...watch a funny movie or something....
((((8)))) hugs

[chaddavis333]

Thank you guys so much for responding, yes I want to go to thrarpy to work on anxiety,  but since I have spent so much money I cant. I have horrible insurance,that won't pay for anything until I reach my 10,000 deductible. I just can't believe it's lasting 2 months. I have never had a withdrawal last so long. I am trying to stay away from the cadfine, but I start withdrawl from it. I used to drink a lot before this started. Thanks every one for responding.

[Jerry198]

99% WD issues once the brain tests you with the panic attacks it hopes that you will provide it with the stuff it wants IE , alcohol, opiates ,THC etc once it finds that you will not provide these ANY LONGER it triggers these attacks ( my opinion) just give it time and these to will pass I know that can be really scary but just hang in there best wishes.

[VICourageous]

YES! It all sounds like detox.
I had done many different drugs off & on for over 40yrs. NOT PROUD TO SAY..Dumb, Dumb and Dumber, but I did not EVER know about w/ds. I had never had one on any other drug, until I got hooked on all those opiates for over 12yrs. Never had a headache unless I had a hangover.
SO when I went c/t off those 3 meds I had HEADACHES that went from the front, side and back. Plus everything else you had describe. They do have a name for the racing heart in detox but I can not remember it and as a x nurse I should! From what I have read about these types of meds they all whack out the Brain Chemistry and Body Parts. I am talking about receptor, transmitters and so much beyond my knowledge. SO for me it made since why I got those Headaches. Tremors are from the Brain/Nervous system as well. The BODY/BRAIN is adjusting back from the removal of these Stimulants.
If you go to a Meeting and any meeting AA/NA you will find out from others that they all did the same thing. I had this lower back pain right in the sac at the bottom of the spine. I was told that the toxins can lay there for awhile until they are detoxed out. TIME & PATIENCE my Friend.

Try not to dwell on this to much because it can drive you nuts!
Bless

[Heavenawaits817tx]

Dude I'm 16 days clean, and every day has been a mental battle!!! If I get yo to fast after laying down my head gets real foggy and idk where I am for 5 seconds. (Almost like not enough oxygen is getting to my brain). Then when I first quit the right side of my brain hurt for like 6 days off/on. Now I don't have headaches anymore though I still have mental issues DUE to w/d. Point is my Brian still hurts but a lot better each passing day. Watch you'll see just keep typing on here even if it is the same question!! I know it helps to hear it from many people. Just when you do feel great make sure to keep posting for the new people cause this site is slow now days!! Prayers

[MrsANAV]

I am nearly 2 months clean oxycodone cold turkey. My panic and anxiety attacks were SEVERE in the beginning, so severe I called 911 three times. Right now they are getting better but appear suddenly and I can tell you that at 11pm just about every night I am still visited. This has been on the dot at 11pm for just about 7 weeks now. It used to be a rapidly escalating heart rate that would leave me dizzy, scares and faint with a rush of fear. Now it begins as a pin prick on the left side of my chest and over the course of 15 minutes it spreads like a little burning fire until my whole chest is stinging and right. I also have a hard time swallowing because my throat tightens. I've come a long way and these are what's left, my heart doesn't spike anymore. For all I know it could decide to come back full force but I try not to worry.

What you're feeling is anxiety, panic...and the symptoms are VERY much physical. It manifests in people differently but it hurts and it's scary as hell.

I found I was experiencing WD from opiates and in my quest to be totally clean I also stopped all Caffiene cold turkey. I didn't know Caffiene withdrawal could actually mimick drug withdrawal. I started drinking it again and my WD symptoms ebbed away significantly. I don't know if that is even a factor for you and I'm not saying go drink coffee to help....that's just my personal finding after evaluating what my habits vs symptoms were.

You can do this...and you're worth it.

[dominosarah]

Do you read our responses?  Gnarly talked to you about the headaches in your last thread.

I have asked you many times if you have thought about seeing a therapist to deal with your anxiety.  If you have spent that much on medical bills why not spend that on working on your demons that are eating at you?  You could feel so much better and not spend every waking minute worrying about some dreaded medical issue you dont have.  You are so close to seeing the freedom Chad.  Just take that last step and start working on what is driving all of this.  You are so worth it~

[chig1130]

Chad, I can tell you from experience, that the shaking on the inside and outside are common withdrawls. I have this happen to me everytime I get off of pain medicine. The racing heart oh yes, it is very scary. I am tapering right now as I write this. I have never tapered, but am trying it for the first time. But I can honestly say, what your experiencing is withdrawls. I know I run from doctor to doctor thinking something else is wrong with me. They find nothing. The doom and gloom, is the depression. Just hang on, you will get thru this. Oh, and the anxiety, it is always over the top for me also. I have horrible withdrawls, absolutely horrible withdrawls. Yes on the headaches, they get awful. I know you will get thru this. You will it just takes time, and none of us like that word. Hang in there buddy.

God Bless
chig

[Addictchick_1983]

I agree..... It prolly due to your wd. I have headaches... Not too sever but there there. And tingling... I'm only four days out.... Tomorrow is day five. I really hope you do get to feeling better soon.... All the symptoms are just horrible. There will be light again. Hang tough
.. You doing great! This too shall pass.... Much prayers you way. Hoping for nothing but the best for you!

             *Chels*

[BearsFan1966]

I believe all this is wd. I know that 64 days out I still at times wake up to my heart racing and I am on high blood pressure meds. The first time I CT'd it was a good 4 months before I began to feel better and that was after a 10year plus run on pain meds. This time I was only on them for less than a year, fell off my horse. The WD were easier, I know everyone is different. Hopefully this will end soon for you I hate seeing people going threw this!
Hugs
Kari

[chaddavis333]

Also what about tremors?? I have them in my hand and I can feel myself shaking on the inside.