Hey all! I'm still around, but I've mainly been lurking. 45 days clean today. Switched over to my fall handbag.. Well what did I find in the pretty fall bag. Yep.. 2 hydro 10's.. They went swimming with the fishes. I had no desire.. They made feel nauseated when I found them. My emotions are getting better! I'm laughing a lot.. Living a lot.. Mainly, I've realized that I can actually live life without pills. No more pill counting, chasing, lying.. Planning around them. I get up I live life, and I take the good with the bad. No more highs.. Lows.. Highs.. Then lows.. You get the drift. No cravings.. No desire. I'm just me.. and that's all I want to be. Great job everyone! A lot of you have come so far in the past few weeks and days! We got this! If you just started your journey to sobriety.. I promise it's worth it!! It may seem hard, and it is at first, but when you realize you are laughing with your children, carving pumpkins, getting excited over something besides getting your hands on a pill.. You will really be living.. You will be getting your life back! God Bless You All!