Day 6 - don't know how I'm gonna do this.

[moonshyne777]

The pain in my back is killer and on top of having two toddlers to deal with, housework and my mind that keeps driving me crazy I don't know how the hell I can do this. I just want to run and hide. Had a hard night last night and just hate how I feel right now. No pink clouds here. Figures.

Why the hell couldn't I have just taken the meds like a normal person. At least I would get some relief from the stenosis in my back but no instead suffer physically and mentally. Nice ******* reward for my suffering. Clean and in pain and feeling like ****. Ahh nice. Sorry I'm venting but I'm just frustrated to tears today.

[sweatinit]

Hey Moon,
Hang in there. Nice job staying true to yourself too! I had wicked rebound pain, but little by little it's starting to fade. I never knew tylenol actually worked. Anyway, glad you're posting and hope you feel better soon!
K

[moonshyne777]

I'm praying to God A LOT lately. This is so big and it must be working cause I'm still here and not giving up. Jlb, not going anywhere..in this for the long haul. Just hope the haulin gets easier. Devil addiction this is, just craziness. But I'm pushing through and have had moments where I don't know how I made it but I did. That must be God. God and my mom watching out for me. If she were alive she'd be kickin my *** for this! Lol

[gnarly_1]

hey girleee glad to see you made it this far congrads on day 6..your pain your getting now is part do to your withdrawals..your mind is creating pain looking for the narcotics
crazy as it sounds its true..also you get rebound pain ..its more intense again because
your not on the narcotics any more your body/mind has to reset its pain clock once this happens you will find like me and manny others that your pain can be managed by motrin and tylonol  both witch never worked for me wile I was on narcotics but take the edge off now...I still have 2 herniated disks in my lower back and an inpingment in my neck...it bother's me less now then when I was on 150ml of methadone...go figure
but it is what it is and it does get better with time...im also a big believer in the healing power of God pray for your pain to subside...God does answer prayers
he's not a genie but it does help to believe in the healing power of Jesus
just hang in there things will get better with time good luck and God bless...Gnarly      

[716]

good job on day 6!! im right there with ya, youre stronger than i am being in real pain through this.  youre brave and and your children are going to have the best mother in the world, their REAL mother.  stick with it and dont lose hope, it WILL get better,

[jlb191]

Please don't give up moon!  I need you here!  I know you are suffering right now but you can do this.  Are you taking anything over the counter for your back pain?  Have you tried an ice pack or heating pad?  Sorry, i know it's especially hard when you are in pain.  Praying for deliverance is also a good idea.  Hand all your pain and worries over to God in Jesus name. I know this may sound silly but i heard a pastor one time tell people to plead the blood of jesus over everything.  Over your life, body, washing machine, whatever you want.  when i take a road trip i bleed jesus blood over the car, engine, drivers and all.  Mentally it works for me because i think if i plead the blood of jesus over it nothing can happen to it and or it will be healed.  Just a spiritual suggestion.  Just ask for Healing.  I am praying for you too! Take care!  

[moonshyne777]

I'm trying so bloody hard to be positive. But I admit I'm a born pessimist, I have a hard time focusing on positives right now. But hanging in there.

[dominosarah]

Hang in there.  The pain will usually get worse before it gets better.  No running and hiding....we are in this together and we will help you get thru.  Think positive!!        sara

[pharma9]

I probably have asked this before,but I can't remember.Are you taking ibuprofen 400mg 2 every 4 hours max 3200mg/24 hours for a few days only?You can combine that with extra strength tylenol 2 every 4 hours as well max 4000mg/day.If you have no liver or kidney or ulcer problems you can take those for a few days and maybe get some relief.

[dedicatedtostop]

You can do this, look how far you have come already. Its a mind over matter game now! I detoxed on the worst of my days at home as a single mother w a 2yr all day and a 9 year old after school w no support at all, so it can be done. I promise you if you change your thought process w positive thoughts it creates such a positive energy. Here's one for ya... I am 6 days clean and doing it for my 2 toddlers, my back is healed, confess it over and over. You CAN do this I know you can!!!!!! Keep posting we will get you through