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1410774 tn?1282094938

Day One of sobriety

I just wanted to announce that my quit date is today.  I have been taking around 50 mg of hydrocodone for the past year or so.  I took my last one last night and flushed about 50 down the toilet.  I woke up craving my usual dosage and can't seem to stop thinking of them.  The mental part will be the hardest for me to conquer.  I called in sick to work and plan to use the weekend to detox.  Support is very much needed!  Thanks.
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Wow, it takes some major balls to flush 50 down the toilet. Just realize you will be sick. I just embraced it. I know, it sounds sick. As for your back pain, I've had two back surgeries. I have been doing ibuprofen 800 mgs. It has been working really well. Be prepared for anxiety. Anxiety has been my devil during this thing. Good Luck with everything. Keep posting. It will keep you accountable.
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1410774 tn?1282094938
The back is better.  I took some Darvocet for it.  I know, I know.....but Darvocet doesn't make me feel "high", so I wouldn't even think of abusing it.  Ibuprofen wasn't helping at all.  I don't feel like doing anything productive, yet I can't keep my mind off of cravings.  The mental part is proving to be the worst for me.
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1427544 tn?1285013857
yes hunny..i know exactly what you mean! hows your back feeling????
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1406964 tn?1283203866
Hi Barbie,

Just to let you know I'm thinking of you, as we all are.

Hang in there, and post back often.

Take care
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495284 tn?1333894042
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Hang tight as this part is only temporary.  Keep us updated on how you are feeling.  You are doing great!!        sara
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Way to go, girl!  I was out of town yesterday, and I just saw this!  I'm so proud of you.  I'm also proud that you are doing this while you are off work, since that is going to be the biggest problem.  The way you feel right now, I'm sure it would be hard not to take something! : )  And flushing those pills is amazing.  You can do this.  

I used to get on a heating pad, and turn a fan on.  Turn the heating pad on medium and the fan on high!!!  

Just think.....by Monday, you will be feeling a little better!  It doesn't last forever, eventhough it feels that way right now.  

Keep posting!  I'll check on you throughout the day.  I'm really proud of you!! : )
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1410774 tn?1282094938
Thanks, Red!  Nice to know someone is going through the same thing!  Well, not nice for you, but you know what I mean, I hope!  Kudos to you!
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1427544 tn?1285013857
i'am very proud of you! maybe try to go lay in the bath for a little bit...it might help your lower back..keep it up! your doing great..i havent had any since 4pm yesterday...and the w/d are already here..."*****" but i have to taper down until next wk end....i'll have a four day at work..and then maybe have to take off a few days after that..if you ever need to talk i'am here sweetie!
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1410774 tn?1282094938
Thanks everyone.  Day 2 and I've already been in the bathroom.  :(  I feel very weak and disoriented.  I'm shaky and my lower back is killing me.  I want to get on my heating pad, but I'm already sweating.  I'm about to try to eat breakfast and take my vitamins.  Will report back soon!
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1374564 tn?1295059520
Hi hon, congratulations on being a flusher! I am too! I am on day 54 sober and I am going to tell you that the cravings still come and go. You must always tell yourself, out loud even (I do) that you do NOT want to go through this nastiness again. When the cravings hit, think about how yucky you feel right now because you did take those opiates before and that should help to make those cravings dissipate. Go for a walk, get up and dance, even when you think you couldn't possibly make it down your driveway or through one song. You can and you will. Just turn on music and sing along to it. You will start to feel the old you coming back out in no time and you might be surprised at how amazing you truly are!
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1032715 tn?1315984234
Well done Barbie95,I'm in Australia so when most people are in bed in the US I'm wide awake and I don't work so I'll be near my computer which I check regularly,so if you need to talk I'll be here for you.

Denise
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199177 tn?1490498534
Barbie, that why we talk about recovery support so much quit thinking about them is the hardest part.I see a therapist it is a better fit for me na/aa was not the right choice for me .I like she my therapist because not only do we discuss the addiction we talk about the triggers and the day to day things that make staying clean hard some time.
As IBK said two and three are the worst then things start to ease up/The nights are the worst good things is there are alot of us late nighters so they may not be many on but there is usually a few ...Hang in there.
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1410774 tn?1282094938
Thanks.  If I could just get my mind to quit thinking that I need the pills, this would be much easier.
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271792 tn?1334979657
Most likely Barbie, it will get worse before it gets better. Day 3 to 4 is usually the turn around time. Hopefully you loaded up on supplements and you did mention that you have a few days off. Try to relax and keep yourself occupied by doing things that you like..watching old movies, doing jog saw puzzles, playing card games..whatever.

You know about the hot baths and you know to keep hydrated, right? Hang in there..I promise that once you are over the hump it does get better.
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1410774 tn?1282094938
Well, I've almost made it through day 1.  My only symptoms are cravings, no energy, a little depression, and the diarrhea just started about an hour ago.  Are day 2 and 3 worse than today?
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199177 tn?1490498534
That is normal.You can do this !!!!! Stay as postive as you can we are here for support ...
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Barbie, our dosage amount seemed to be the same except for this last time for me. I experienced hot flashes, some sweats, uncomfortable, emotional issues, stomach issues and RLS. Do the Thomas Recipe it WORKS!! II am also drinking protein shake every day to repair my body. My wd's usually lasted about 3 days and then the mental part began which was no motivation, energy and depression. I honestly cant say how long that lasts because the most I ever made it without anything was probably like 20 days but I tapered with tram so I technically wasnt not completely free 20 days. Get as much rest as you can and take hot baths. Also find a way to get motivation to fight this battle. Listening to music gets me so pumped and then I think of my friends who passed away and ask them to help me today as I start a new morning. I then get in the shower and end up making it another day without!
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1410774 tn?1282094938
Thanks everyone.  I went back to sleep for a few hours, but woke up very, very shaky and weak.  Is that normal?  By now, I would've taken at least 4 pills.  The aches haven't sat in yet, nor has the tummy issues, but I know they're coming!
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495284 tn?1333894042
COMMUNITY LEADER
Congrats on getting your life back.  Stay positive.  Check out the amino acids in the health pages.  We need to replenish our body with something good.  Drink plenty of fluids and get up and move around as much as you can......Reach out for support.  You can do this!!          sara
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Congrats on flushing thats a hard thing to do but makes me think that you are ready to quit the opiates.You are in for a tough few days but its worth it. You will see that for yourself. Craving and so on is all part of w/ds but worth the fight.One thing at a time get through the w/ds then deal with the mental part. Witch i think is the hardest.But everyday isa fight to stay clean but you will and can do this. Best of luck yo ya girl, Ill be rooting for ya,,,,James
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I am so glad you are quitting the opiates.You will be happier without the guilt.
It will be a rough few days,but you can make it through detox.
Take the nutrients and vitamins to help you get through it and then you need some aftercare to prevent relapse.
Good luck girlie and you will do it.
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1412212 tn?1285599428
Congratulations on taking your life back! Stay strong and watch funny movies to help the time go by. Take hot baths for the aches and pains. The first 3 days will be rough but by day 4 you will start to feel the change. You can do this! I took advil and had a heating pad for my back. Also for sleep I took melatonin which is a natural herb and it can help you sleep. I am on day 14 now from a 3 year addiction from this stuff. I can tell you it was not a picnic in the park but I kept reminding myself that the WD's are temporary and I want my life back. You can do this my friend! Keep us posted!
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1406964 tn?1283203866
Hi,

I also wanted to ask if you've stocked up on OTC remedies etc. Even if you don't think you want them it's best to get them in case.

It's not good when you decide you need them and all the shops are shut!

Congratulations on your decision. I'm sure you won't regret it.

Post often and we'll all give you all the help, advice and support that we can.

Go for it!

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I am very proud of you! You're stronger than a lot of people...flushing away your pills takes a lot of conviction so you are obviously very dedicated to your decision. Just stay positive and know that it won't be easy...telling yourself it will be would be setting yourself up for failure. It'll be hard and you should prepare yourself. No matter how sick you get, you should force yourself to stay busy, keep positive, and I really think that going to meetings will help...even if you think you are too sick to go, force yourself to do it. The first one is always the hardest to make yourself go to, but once you do, you start feeling better mentally by 100%. So stay strong, and I'm very proud of you! Keep us updated!
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