Day Two & feeling more anixety, then I did yesterday!

[seriouslyaddicted]

I am feeling so many withdraw symtpons today. I went cold turkey yesterday, and had a horrible night last night. I didn't sleep really at all, unitl in the early morning hours, from 5am to 6:30am. My legs won't stop shaking, my nerves are shot, I have taken hot bathes, I am taking 5 different vitamins, about 20 of them a day(amino acid recipe) and nothing is helping. I can't eat, drink, sleep, or function. Should I go to the ER. I am so scared I am going to dehydrate or something bad is going to happen, and I am all my kids have. Please help me someone!!!! I am sitting here reading post after post, but I can barely concentrate and I am going crazy from my whole body shaking. Please HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am all alone!

[seriouslyaddicted]

Thank you so much! I feel more alive today, then I think I have felt in a very long time. It was hard work, but well worth it, and I know that now I can be the mother I need to be for my kids, and that is the best part!!!!!!!!!

[peaceinknowing]

Right now, please know that my hat is off to you. You're very much so commended for your actions, even if the only way to get there was a treatment center. Some can do with or without, it took strength to figure that out on your own. Congrats on everything, and I hope/pray that you stay here with us on the forums and continue to keep your posts up with progress reports!

[seriouslyaddicted]

I did it. I have made it, 7 days cleans. I had to go into treatment though to do it. Too much stuff happened coming off those demon pills. And too much stuff happened while on them. I did some really bad things the 2 years I spent doing them. I am so thankful today to be off them, and thankful I went to a treatment center. It was like going into hell, but there was only one way to go and that was up from there. I am going to start a 12 step program now, and go everyday for 90 days. I now know I was a complete addict. This disease is a horrible disease and it takes away your life, but I am thankful for today, and thankful I am CLEAN!!!!!!!!!
     Thank you all for being here for me.

[anotherfinemess1]

I would suggest getting some clonidine for the anxiety.  It is a mild blood pressure medication that is commonly prescribed for withdrawals.  It helps tremendously.  I ended up in the ER with panic and anxiety during acute withdrawals (prior to this, I had never had anxiety or panic attacks in my life-- I thought I was having a heart attack or something). The clonide was a lifesaver.

[mjones5]

Today is your 3rd day. I hope you are doing ok. You almost have the wd's behind you. Tomorrow maybe a bit better. Please let us know how you are doing. Hang in there and know we are thinking of you and are here for you!!!! Your in my prayers!!!!

[Ella789]

I understand how you both are feeling,  everyone who comes to this forum knows how detox is.  We can help you by letting you know that you are not alone and tell you what has helped us through.   Time doesn't go by so quickly when you are in detox, I was fortunate enough to have Clonidine to help out and a few tranzene, not everyone is as fortunate.    

The Immodium will help with the diahreaha and also has something in it that helps with the stomach receptors.  Benadryl, antihistamine,   something for muscle cramps, (flexeril, or muscle rub),  something for nausea,   otc pain meds(extra strength) a heating pad and some potassiun and fluids.    Be aware that depression can hit you pretty hard at times so if you know what to expect then you can see it for what it is !  In a couple or three days you will be over the physical part,   the mental cravings will hit, and I hope I am wrong, but just deal with them and remember that going back means going through detox again sometime down the road.

I hope that you all will post often and ask questions, someone will come along who can give you advice on what worked for them.

Ella

[Reality_Check]

I understand! I am still in day one, tried but always caved. I feel same exact or very similar as you. No appetite, uncontrollable stretching, yawning and didnt sleep a wink last night. i hear by day 3, it starts to get better. Like you, i have to work everyday. Icant take off, fear of being fired.Maybe we can help eachother, and get help right n here. how about the emotional part, im 40yom and do understand - good luck, to us

[happiereachday]

I liked your advice that you gave. Thank you. I don't have a serious problem, i was taking 3-4 pills a day for 5 months and I am not perscribed to them. They were my dads and I was taking them for pain in my pelvic region, which may be cysts. I have to wait till I start school in 2 weeks so I have medical insurance. Anyways, the withdrawls started super bad yesterday. I ended up telling my dad, and I told him not to hide them. He didn't. I refuse to take them. I am just having flu like symptoms and I HATE them. The only thing that is really bothering me is my brutal headache. How long will this w/d lasts? I just want to feel better.

[newstart730]

You have gotten good advice so far, and I'd like to add a little to it.  What you are feeling is NORMAL for acute withdrawals, so there is no need to panic.  I and many others here have gone through exactly the same thing, and we made it through.  You will too!  :)  It sounds like you might be familiar with the Thomas recipe, but if not, you can find it on the health pages on the upper right part of the screen.  Don't overdo the supplements right now- the advised dose will help, but they can't work magic. This early in your detox, their effects probably won't be noticed yet.  Definitely eat bananas and drink an electrolyte replacement drink like Gatorade.  Immodium (only as needed, you don't want to have the reverse problem lol) will help control your stomach and prevent dehydration which is the most dangerous part of wds.  Focus on flushing out the toxins with fluids and eating bland food, even if it's just saltine crackers.  For me, a long, HOT bath was an AMAZING help with the shakes and nerves.  Take care of yourself, pamper yourself as much as you can, watch your favorite comedy, and you will be fine. Wds from hydro are beyond awful, but they aren't life-threatening and you will have your life back in a few days.  Good luck!

[whitie]

its the price we all eventually have to pay. in the end, this where we all have gone.  like the others said well, accept the fact you are going to be messed up for 3-6 days, then it will get better.

this is a war for your life and wars are not won in just a few days. each day is a new battle. win a few battles and it will start to get better. mentally prepare yourself and fight hard. It will be worth it.  get some cold meds,nasal sprays, ibuprophin,L-tyrosine and try energy drinks or simmilar supplements for the daytime,  at night you can use valarian root,melatonin, and some swear by bananas.

[leeisgettingclean]

plus just wanted to add something. You need to accept the fact that you are not going to feel any better on day two than you did on day 1, and i would prob not get to let down when i did not feel alot better tomorrow, however after that you prob start to feel better. It took you alot longer than a day or 2 to get into this mess so you have to be patiant and accept that its not gona get better over night either, altough ever passing night puts another day between you and your addiction, and that is how it will get better, by putting more and more days between you and your addiction!

[leeisgettingclean]

you wil be fine. I went cold turkey off 15-20 10s a day, yeah it ***** but compared to others like , methadone, sub, oxys, herion, and many more, we still shall count ourselves lucky. I do know at this point in your recovery "luck" is not a word you are really feeling, however after you are clean for a few more days I hope you will take the time to read about some people w/ding from these harder ones to kick, that is when you will understand why i say what i do. I think like troubleinohio on this and really do believe that a taper is at minamal hard and for me impossible. A taper means " being able to controll your drug use for a short amount of time till you get clean" i dont know about you but if i could controll my drug use i prob wouldnt be here seeking help, and i am not trying to knock the ones that could and did tapering, I only know for me, it was not good! I do know you can make it, I also do understand that at times during the first 4 or 5 days you will feel like you are going to die, the good news is w/ds from these pills are not going to kill you.

[troubleinohio]

i keep signing offline, go run the vaccum, do some dishes and then think OH MAN I FORGOT TO TELL YOU THIS....lol... so here i am back on again in btwn chores to flap my jaws some more at you...

Ive used this comparison before a few times and your situation seems like you could relate so here I go again..

Since you have children, you obviously know the way it goes with being pregnant, going into labor and delivery... well, getting off pills is actually quite similar in a lot of ways. When youre pregnant with your first, you're usually pretty anxious and sometimes downright petrified after hearing horror/war stories from other mothers who've been through it before. as the big day nears, you become more scared of the pain youre about to endure from labor, and the fear of the unknown, and the worrying if things will be OK with the baby. At some point you may even DREAD it you get so scared, but you KNOW there is no way around it, obviously the baby HAS to come out of you, lol.  Well getting off pills and going through WD Is much like this... youre' scared of the pain, of the unknown and you KNOW there is no way around the WD pains and that you have to just suffer it out. There's just no other way!  But just like when you were in that bed giving birth, about to bend the metal rails on the bed during the agony of labor pains,  that pain PASSED...went away.......and afterwards you were given the most precious gift...your beautiful baby...  and after you get past the WD pains, you will be given the gift of being CLEAN and free of your slavery to those nasty pills and a new chance at life again...  please think about this... you got through having your kids just fine and you will get through this too...

sorry if i jumped around alot, my mind is scattered today badly but I hope i conveyed the meaning of my message clearly to you..

[addict3]

You have been given some good advice, perhaps you should consider backing off of so many pills right now if you are not able to keep anything on an empty stomach.

Try a Hot bath, as hot as you can stand, then wrap your legs with ace bandages and go to bed. Get some rest before your kids get home.

Some here advise against the valium, however it might be in order, just use it for a few days only... should you choose that option.

This typically will last for 3-5 days then the physical part will be mostly over, consider after care as soon as you are able to think straight.


Eat and exersise as you can, moving around will help more than about anything.
Hang on, it will get better...........I promise!

[troubleinohio]

i was afraid you may be bad off last night and today when i read that you jumped off CT from about 20  hydros a day (the higher dosage pills no less, too!). That is a huge jump off a cliff, but at least you didnt prolong your suffering with a taper... you'll get through the WDs sooner this way. I only could go CT as well because i had no will power to taper for the life of me, i always ate my pills up greedily each day til they were just gone.

You can get through this. I know exactly how you feel right now, oh trust me do i ever know. Ive relapsed so many times its not funny. I lost track how many times Ive been through severe CT WD's (off the same drug, hydro, too).   Your biggest enemy right now is your extreme anxiety. Try to calm down. You will not die from this. I remember feeling the way you do right now and thinking "OMG how am i going to get through this? I feel like dying!!"  and I also have small children to care for.   It was very hard, but i got through it. I remember having to get out of the house during Severe WD and go to the grocery store for milk and stuff for my kids, and my legs did not want to cooperate with me. I had the severe Tree Trunk Leg Syndrome where they felt like they each weighed about 8000 Lbs and hurt so bad and they didnt want to work right. Each step was literally a struggle! It was amazing to me that "just WD " could do such a thing to one's body.  And then my back hurt so much I wanted to about blow my head off to make it stop.  Also had the severe chills/aches where it felt like the ICY COLD PAIN was radiating from within my very bones.  ANd let us not forget the lovely diarrhea and stomach pains, lol.... so trust me, I know exactly how you feel, and so do soooooooooo many of us here.  Most of us on this forum are pill addicts so you are in good company.   You will make it through this.   Try using heating pads, advil, drink lots of fluids, eat bananas, use some Immodium or pepto, gas ex... id be careful with the large amnts of supps you are taking, you dont want to OVERDO it, ya know? especially since you are on an antidepressant. You dont want to have an interaction.  

Hang in there and PM me when you get home if you need to talk more. Im here for ya and i totally know where youre coming from!

[seriouslyaddicted]

I am going home now. I can't take this anymore, Im going crazy. I will try to log on later from home. Thanks for your support. Please say prayers!!!!!!

[leeisgettingclean]

Hey first off, you must calm down. Stress only adds more pain to what you are going through. I do not think you are going to be helped by going to the E.R., the only thing that is going to solve your w/ds is time. You are on day 2 now, day 2 and 3 were the worse for me, after those two days it really starts to get better with each passing moment. This takes time, plain and simple. Everything you talked about is w/ds, so atleast you know whats going on with your body.

[mjones5]

You arent alone, we are here. you are 1 day clean!!!! I know it has to be scarey, but you are going to make it through this. When you drink, do it in small sips, dont take big drinks. Small ones. Wait a few mins and take another small one. Dehydrating is a concern. It would probably be better if you had the rest of the week off. I cant even imagine going ct and having to work. You are very brave for doing that. I couldnt, no way. You are doing good, everything you are feeling physically is normal. If you feel you need to go to the ER then definatly do so if you cannot drink anything at all. Remember...small sips! Keep posting today, we are here. Praying for you!!