I have a compromised immune system of unknown origin. It is not AIDS (THANKS TO GOD my ex-was a get around)!
They have tested for MS, Lupus, etc. At the moment they are calling it fibromyalgia because there is nothing else to figure at this point.
In fact, I'm getting sick again right now. I feel it comming. I get weak, then my lungs tighten, then who knows what....
I want to be in controll so bad. I have lost my job from this. I am retraining, but have gotten so bad that even home retraining is on hold.
Everything has gone to hell in a basket! I think that is why I don't want to take the meds any more. At least there is controll there, ya know what I mean?
I totaled up all my days usage normally. I use oxyCODONE, which is the percocet without Tylenol that very often is confused by oxyCONTIN. The second being increased in severity by lots! Know this so no one is confused into it's use. It was origionally posted to the MD community that oxyCONTIN was NOT as addictive as the other opiates.
Anyway, back to my usage, I use oxycodone the true percocet without Tylenol. I am supposed to take two 5 mg tabs every 4 hours. I used to take three 5 mg tabs every 4 hours. Now I'm down to ONE 5 mg tabs with my goal of space in between being 12 hours. That is not going well. I'm managing to take 5 mg tab every 7-8 hours instead. So, essentially, in the last 2 weeks I have gone from 40mg per day to 15 mg max daily. The numbers do not look astounding, but I am also bi-polar. I do NOT ever want to hit suicidal again and I came darn close when they did a trial of Demoral on me. I said NO more as soon as I figured out what was causing the malfunction.
I know that I'm addicted cause it is all I think about right now. There once was a question in my mind because the doc so carfully told me how I would not be an "addict" my body would be dependent. IT SURE IS!!!!
I don't know how you all count the days. I count the hours right now. To top it off, my nebulizer for my lungs makes me even more jumpy.
I'm right on the cusp of making a decision. I know I can refill on Thursday, or Friday. I have given some of mine to a friend, I KNOW that was wrong and he and I have discussed it, that it will NOT happen anymore! However, it has cut me short on my script. I will be out on Wed, or Thurs. I do not want to full throttle detox, I want to lower it more. I already cant stand this feeling, maybe I did it too quick, but I had to.
Anyway, Thanks for askin. I'm gonna go fall apart now....
Gogeyi
Its great that you can tapper, I know I could not I tried and tried but it never worked for me. I have spoke to friends who said it never worked for them either. What is the cause of you being so sick.
I hear ya and appreciate it. The Doc and I have decided together that my health is to "iffy" to try to quit right now. I'm having to fight my way out of all the illnesses first before my body is safe to handle it.
Just 2 days ago, I helped a good friend with her sisters wedding. Realized I had not had good liquid all day and had not gone to the bathroom in over 14 hours. Then I realized that my fingers were blue again. NOT GOOD. I pounded the gatoraid and final peed, but it was brown from dehydration.
So you see, at this point, one 'bout of diahrrea will do damage.
In the mean time, I am tapering. Just enough to make me jumpy, and not sleep well (which I HATE)! But I can't have my body loosing fluids right now.
I do hope you start feeling well soon.
Peace,
Gogeyi
Today is my 3rd day going cold turkey from Vic - I wish I had the strength to tapper off and reading some of the forums people have had sucess in doing so. I REALLY want to encourage you to be done with this stuff - for "me" I want to suffer through this to ensure I NEVER go back not matter what! And you are so very right, it is extremely important to hydrate - I just started having diarrah today and for me it extremely painful due to me getting on the Vics to begin with due to bowel surgery - I did take the advice on the forum and I did take a XanX today which has helped take the edge of somewhat and I will take OTC stuff for the pain - I wish you the strength and mind set of saying: Enough is Enough, I'm over this, I got myself into this mess and I will get myself out, that I understand I will be in pure hell for the next 5 days but it will be worth every horrible minute - What's 5 days in exchange for the rest of your life - it's a small price to pay - Trust me - YOU CAN DO IT!!!!