Drugs porn and violence

[Lostlittlegirlat33]

My bf is addicted to methamphetamine..I use very occasionally, thing is he has it and gets obsessed with porn and wanking, on its own would be ok, but he expects me to join him and get him off for literally hours on end while he watches other women and often gay porn too, I get no attention and when he comes down he attacked me violently, broken bones bruise's etc...he's isolated me from my friends and because he's a narcissist he knows exactly what to say to mentally twist everything to make out I'm the one with all the problems...I'm miserable and living in fear...so now I'm certain he's cheating with both men and women alike, so what's wrong with me that I can not fathom being without him? The hugs we have are the best I've ever had..th that mabye why I stay...help!!! Just tell me what to do and how to do it...the flat belongs to me btw ..

[mombojombo]

So, I'm going to be straight with you. This is an unacceptable situation.  He's very ill.  And he's hurting you? I understand where you're at.  You are codependent. But understand that it is not healthy to stay with a person who physically hurts you. Let alone the addiction that is clear to porn and meth. An abusive person is never 100 percent awful. They all have a good side that they show from time to time.  But we can not ignore that they've hurt us.  I am sure you know that deep down.  Leaving is hard. And it sounds like you actually need HIM to go since it is your place.  Does anyone in your family or your friends know what is going on? I think you make an exit plan.  This includes how to lock him out with new locks.  Where to put his things so he can get them. Or give up the flat and go elsewhere. Such a hard situation but you have to be safe.  Bruises and broken bones and forcing you to spend hours watching porn and getting him off is just not okay.  Let alone all of his other issues. I really feel for you and you are 'living in fear'. Get out.  How can we help you?