FLEEING PRETTY BAD TODAY (DAY3)

[ladyboop]

Do not think taking those pills over the weekend helped..LOL..LOL.. Feeling BAD today, you know the drill, sweats, shakey, runs, clamy, hot, cold, headache, leg pain, He!! I think I have them all, I flopped around in the bed like a fish till 3:30am. I had taken a xanax, 0.5 at midnight. I could have taken more. but did not want to start that. I have never had any troulbe with them. But I am not going to push my luck. I know as addicts go, We have a way of trading one for another.. I am trying to be very mindful of that. I know it would not hurt to go up to 1mgs. that is what I am suppose to take. But like I said, There will be no trading....
I am hanging on best I can. Had a dr appt today. But I called, and said I could not make it. I know I would have walked out with a rx.. that was the plan.... God help me, cause I am not strong enough to do this on my own.....
Thanks to ALL of you for your support and kindness....


                        Lady

[CadillacJack]

You'll be able to do this, if you want to. Right now you are in the hardest part of w/d. I won't lie to you and tell you you're over the hump, tomorrow will be better, and so on. It probably won't be. For a minority of people, maybe. Let's be real. You've got another probably 3 days that will not be real fun. But it won't kill you. After that, you will start to be better, and that will continue to be so. You have to ask yourself: Are a few days worth the rest of my life as a drug abuser? That's a simple question, and it has a simple answer. That answer is a resounding YES. We all go where you are, and most of us make it to the other side. Think of it as running a gauntlet. Don't quit, just to have to start over. And you know you will. We all have to do this. There ain't any old junkies. The drug can cost you every good thing in your life, and it will, if you allow that to happen. Then, when nothing else is left, it'll take your life also. Use that head of yours. You'll make it. I'm at day 31, so I remember fully what the first days are like.

[ladyboop]

Stay strong.... I know how hard it is.. Took alot for me to call that Dr office. I know it was the right thing to do. Just hope I can keep it up... ALWAYS EASIER SAID THEN
DONE!!
If it was not for the people here not sure if I could have come as far as I have....

Thanks to all of you!!!!!

              Lady

[GoingToMakeIt]

Look into LDN therapy. It is Low Dose Naltrexone and it is supposed to work wonders. Any Dr can prescribe it, but very few know about it. It has to be made up by the right compound pharmacy.

[rockhead23]

I have been part of this site for over 8 months now....mostly reading when I need the strength...I am in day 1 c/t of a 12 year addiction to Hydro's...10's  12xday. I have tried too many times to quit but I keep going back.  The only reason I quit is because my source runs out.....I am supposed to get a refill tomorrow...I know what you are going through...I quit once for 14 days then 4 days you know the drill...help me to help you.  If you hang in there you'll give me the strength to decline tomorrow delivery...I'm hurtin right now and I don't want to go thru this all over again.....Keep believing that it really has an end to the hold over us...take whatever comfort in knowing right now I am hurting and going crazy also.....

[worried878]

I think that was a great idea to cancel that appt girl!  You are doing so well...I know u dont feel so great but u r so close...hang in there and keep moving forward