The demon is calling me

[thebign]

The demon in my head is calling to me today.  It has been 6 days of pain meds and it has been hard.  My dealer called yesterday and I told him the police were watching me and he hung up before I could finish what I was saying.  I felt good about that.  But today my brain is playing tricks on me.  I got into a fight with my wife and was triggered.  I am staying strong but it is crazy how it pops up.  I know I can't go back and don't want to go back.  Thank you for all of you that are going though this also.  I know I am not alone.  Be strong my friends.  This to shall pass.

[jt808]

hey i have done alota stuff like u told ur dealer just for an excuse to stop talkn to them its pretty funny sum the stuff we addicts can come up with.lol. anyway i kno all too well about the deamon calling to ya an just driving u crzy trust me its real real tough and takes alot to stay strong so try an keep busy an active keep ur mind on as many other things as possible. an post or reply if uy need to do somethn good luck buddy

[Beth105]

I know how you feel, I want so bad to get off the meds...