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Feeling alone.
Has anyone been on methadone for over a decade? I've been on this for 12 years and my father asked me,are you going to live like this forever? It hit me so hard cuz I never thought about it.
During those 11 years I went up and down a lot,(highest dose was 80mgs) but managed to get myself down to 13 mgs by new years eve 2011. Then started a silly rapid detox and decreased 13 mgs down to 11mgs for one week. Then 11mgs down to 8.5mgs the next. I got so sick. Felt like my heart almost gave up on me giving me random chest pains. So I had to slow down. I went only 1mg each week til I got to 5.5mgs, & stayed on that for 10 days as I felt the rapid detox was catching up to me. Today is only day one and I'm sending myself into a panic attack! I do have clonidine and Diazapam and some lopermide just in case. Has any body out there been on methadone for over a decade and made it? Are the withdrawals longer than others who has been on it like 3 or 4 years? Will it be harder on people who've been on it too long? Is it too late?
During those 11 years I went up and down a lot,(highest dose was 80mgs) but managed to get myself down to 13 mgs by new years eve 2011. Then started a silly rapid detox and decreased 13 mgs down to 11mgs for one week. Then 11mgs down to 8.5mgs the next. I got so sick. Felt like my heart almost gave up on me giving me random chest pains. So I had to slow down. I went only 1mg each week til I got to 5.5mgs, & stayed on that for 10 days as I felt the rapid detox was catching up to me. Today is only day one and I'm sending myself into a panic attack! I do have clonidine and Diazapam and some lopermide just in case. Has any body out there been on methadone for over a decade and made it? Are the withdrawals longer than others who has been on it like 3 or 4 years? Will it be harder on people who've been on it too long? Is it too late?
you have come so far in 20 days! Amazing ,you deserve a huge pat on the back! Keep on keeping on xxx
Hi guys.
20 days and I'm doing really well. I have a dilemma though. My brother's coming up to see our parents up in the country side. Problem is, he's still on his methadone. And he's on 75 mgs!
I'm only on 20 days clean and going through the mental side effects. Just knowing what he's bringing up with him is sending me into a panic attack! He is the last person I should be seeing right now.
I'm planning on going home though. So if he decides to stay, I'll leave.
On a different note, I am doing so much better.
Still weak but no energy crash. Chills I still have but gets less intense every time and not at often. Still can't sleep and I still do get the occasional restless legs but oddly on one leg instead of both legs.
Love you guys.
Catt.
20 days and I'm doing really well. I have a dilemma though. My brother's coming up to see our parents up in the country side. Problem is, he's still on his methadone. And he's on 75 mgs!
I'm only on 20 days clean and going through the mental side effects. Just knowing what he's bringing up with him is sending me into a panic attack! He is the last person I should be seeing right now.
I'm planning on going home though. So if he decides to stay, I'll leave.
On a different note, I am doing so much better.
Still weak but no energy crash. Chills I still have but gets less intense every time and not at often. Still can't sleep and I still do get the occasional restless legs but oddly on one leg instead of both legs.
Love you guys.
Catt.
Het catt so glad you found the epsom salts. The magnesium really helps.
Keep on soaking.
How are you today?
Keep on soaking.
How are you today?
Thats great news I am 60 days off now and once it let up it got better every day it is a great feeling when that fog lifts that we never realized we was in my new Dr said he wouldnt give it to anyone that it was evil stuff and for once I agree with him even though he is a prick sounds like your gonna make it the RLS was the worst for me Hot baths was the only peace I had from it but I made it so can you
Hi guys
Thanks for always, always being here. I'm so lucky to have the support and understanding and most of all, everything that I needed to do, if not for you guys, I am positive I'd still be in a very slow like death feeling, if not for the advices and leading to the right direction. The only symptoms that still stays with me are the chicken skin, back pain I never knew I had, yawning and sneezing less and less day by day. And of course the insomnia and the god damn restless legs when they feel like playing with me and refuses to stop. Just last night I was up til 5am when it finally stopped and I passed out from it.
I found the Epsom salt. And omg when I soak my body in it, my back pain disappears! ....temporarily of course. But it gives me peace for a while, ... besides all that, I am lucky I don't have that energy crash no more. I was expecting that to last for months.
I really am one of the lucky ones. Although my back pain can get really bad sometimes but its because im always slouching.
Annie you described me 99% right. Wow!
I don't seek to please but when I unintentionally do, I wouldn't even know. Should pay more attention now that I'm no longer a methadone sleep walker.
Everything you told me to do has led me to recover this quick. I still have some symptoms but that energy crash that I dreaded, is actually almost gone. I can tell when I get up to walk to the kitchen. And I feel alright. I am so so grateful. *hugs
Thanks for always, always being here. I'm so lucky to have the support and understanding and most of all, everything that I needed to do, if not for you guys, I am positive I'd still be in a very slow like death feeling, if not for the advices and leading to the right direction. The only symptoms that still stays with me are the chicken skin, back pain I never knew I had, yawning and sneezing less and less day by day. And of course the insomnia and the god damn restless legs when they feel like playing with me and refuses to stop. Just last night I was up til 5am when it finally stopped and I passed out from it.
I found the Epsom salt. And omg when I soak my body in it, my back pain disappears! ....temporarily of course. But it gives me peace for a while, ... besides all that, I am lucky I don't have that energy crash no more. I was expecting that to last for months.
I really am one of the lucky ones. Although my back pain can get really bad sometimes but its because im always slouching.
Annie you described me 99% right. Wow!
I don't seek to please but when I unintentionally do, I wouldn't even know. Should pay more attention now that I'm no longer a methadone sleep walker.
Everything you told me to do has led me to recover this quick. I still have some symptoms but that energy crash that I dreaded, is actually almost gone. I can tell when I get up to walk to the kitchen. And I feel alright. I am so so grateful. *hugs
Day 15!! (Awesome Catt..just awesome!! :)
I was so happy to read about how you feel when your Dad gets home. You described it well & instantly brought me back to the way I felt in my first 5 mos. or so. It's weird how we're so totally enervated & can barely move but @ the same time when we're interacting with others, listening to music (I highly recommend it) or watching something funny or uplifting it's such a revelation. It really underscores how remote from our own feelings & lives we were on M'done, eh? (Who knew? I certainly didn't!). Things will be raw for you like this for a while, so it's important that you try to stay away from anything that might trigger the more difficult/dark side of your feelings. Reading through your honest & heartfelt posts, I get the sense of someone who is hard on themselves internally, presents well externally & seeks to please others (again, I can really relate to all of this -- if I'm reading too much in or projecting, just let me know :) I also see someone with strength & determination (I loved your mention of working @ a butchers & doing your own work there -- not to many chicks in that field -- most excellent!) Along with soul-searching/self-honesty & willingness these qualities will see you through this metamorphosis & beyond.
I'm so glad that you're doing this now, at your age. I really am. You have a journey of self-discovery & limitless possibilities in front of you if you stay the course. It's not easy & you'll be navigating new terrain but just keep the Faith -- in yourself & in the whole arduous, miraculous process.
In terms of the yawning & chills & sneezing, these symptoms will slowly start to dry up in the coming days/weeks. Kudos to you for making it through the M'done 'acutes'! I know it's been brutal but it sounds like you're now firmly standing on the opposite shore. I agree with Weaver that Gatorade is not an optimal choice. I know that it's touted as an electrolyte balancer but it's filled with massive amts. of chemically treated sugar, artificial color & bromated vegetable oil. Since you're feeling energy-less & want to give your chemistry a chance to heal (sugar will interfere mightily with normalizing energy levels) why not hydrate with plain water? Coconut water is a natural & excellent way to balance electrolytes. Just try to bear in mind that you need to keep a healthy intake of : Sodium, Chloride, Potassium, Calcium & Magnesium (Also, healthy fats & protein). Remember, if you're eating very little, sweating & have the runs, you're probably not retaining much & might want to make sure to supplement through eating small healthy meals. The vitamins are cool but they are in no way as effective or a replacement for this stuff. Anyway 'nuff of my nutritional screed :)
Just wanted to give you an 'atta girl -- way to go Catt on Day 15!!
Good Sleep, warmth & comfort to you, my friend,
Annie
I was so happy to read about how you feel when your Dad gets home. You described it well & instantly brought me back to the way I felt in my first 5 mos. or so. It's weird how we're so totally enervated & can barely move but @ the same time when we're interacting with others, listening to music (I highly recommend it) or watching something funny or uplifting it's such a revelation. It really underscores how remote from our own feelings & lives we were on M'done, eh? (Who knew? I certainly didn't!). Things will be raw for you like this for a while, so it's important that you try to stay away from anything that might trigger the more difficult/dark side of your feelings. Reading through your honest & heartfelt posts, I get the sense of someone who is hard on themselves internally, presents well externally & seeks to please others (again, I can really relate to all of this -- if I'm reading too much in or projecting, just let me know :) I also see someone with strength & determination (I loved your mention of working @ a butchers & doing your own work there -- not to many chicks in that field -- most excellent!) Along with soul-searching/self-honesty & willingness these qualities will see you through this metamorphosis & beyond.
I'm so glad that you're doing this now, at your age. I really am. You have a journey of self-discovery & limitless possibilities in front of you if you stay the course. It's not easy & you'll be navigating new terrain but just keep the Faith -- in yourself & in the whole arduous, miraculous process.
In terms of the yawning & chills & sneezing, these symptoms will slowly start to dry up in the coming days/weeks. Kudos to you for making it through the M'done 'acutes'! I know it's been brutal but it sounds like you're now firmly standing on the opposite shore. I agree with Weaver that Gatorade is not an optimal choice. I know that it's touted as an electrolyte balancer but it's filled with massive amts. of chemically treated sugar, artificial color & bromated vegetable oil. Since you're feeling energy-less & want to give your chemistry a chance to heal (sugar will interfere mightily with normalizing energy levels) why not hydrate with plain water? Coconut water is a natural & excellent way to balance electrolytes. Just try to bear in mind that you need to keep a healthy intake of : Sodium, Chloride, Potassium, Calcium & Magnesium (Also, healthy fats & protein). Remember, if you're eating very little, sweating & have the runs, you're probably not retaining much & might want to make sure to supplement through eating small healthy meals. The vitamins are cool but they are in no way as effective or a replacement for this stuff. Anyway 'nuff of my nutritional screed :)
Just wanted to give you an 'atta girl -- way to go Catt on Day 15!!
Good Sleep, warmth & comfort to you, my friend,
Annie
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