For those of you who messaged me and for those of you who checked in with me- THANKS....I appreciate it- BELIEVE it or not, I lost count of my days now- but I know I am in week 3- so it has been over 20 days clean now- completely detoxed- I feel great, head is CLEAR as clear can be- I still suffer a little from lack of energy, but I try and fight it. I know some of you thought I might have relapsed, but I can tell you I know in my heart, soul, and spirit I CAN NEVER go back- I just can't go through the numbness of living life anymore- I have problems and issues, with family and life in general- finances and such- BUT- that wasn't the answer- I just have to deal, cope and stop being so hard on myself....I threw myself into my work, I concentrated on things OTHER than what my body was feeling or my mind was telling me- and it has worked- I did want to come back here though- I tell you, those first 5 days- I don't think I could have done it without all of you out here- especially FLMagi, GAGuy, trouble in ohio, and HAWK.....thanks to all of you....