Thanks for the pm bud..I am soooo glad you are not going...I would come over and kick your ash...Ha! You gave me a manic moment...I am sure you could tell...Ha!!!!! lol there my friend...
God Bless U Always & Forever...Go check out my new status and pic....
vickie
I was married once.... I know how to kiss *** and change the subject lol
Oh I forgot, you seem so old because of your wisom...lol
Lol. Hey watch it w old buddy!! Same age as u!!! Ha
I like Christina 2.0,
The New Adventures Of Old Christina :)
Yay to both of us then!!! Home slice. Lol.
I have a few more big test coming up next weekend but feeling so darn good about being clean I'm not as stressed anymore !!
Watch out brother !!! The new me is in town!! Meow!!!!
I had a great one, love you more.
Congrats on your test home fry...you got this. I did too. I didn't cut or use during a manc spell....yeah.
I am not going anywhere and we can chat anytime you can pull yourself away from this site...lol
Hope u had a good Easter bubby!! Hugs to you brother. Love ya!!!
I passed another big test ....... No pills on a holiday!! Yay!!! Miss chatting w u
WOW, that was long but it was well received and well appreciated. I could never quit you guys-I was just on the fourth day of an extreme manic spell and my impulses and behaviors are a little out of control. I am usually very understanding of any addict that comes on here, as most of you know, I just have some issues of my own that can affect my behavior.
I appreciate everybody and the notes and messages and don't worry, nothing could keep me from coming back.....
If this site closed, I would just mail you guys...lol...whatever happpened to mailing letters? :)
Very well said Clean. It takes a village sometimes to heal a soul. This crazy affliction of addiction isn't a one size fits all, chances are tho that somewhere in all the text and love on this forum, each one of us at one time or another will say the one thing that really will make a difference and resonate with someone and make a difference. Now where's that magic wand when we need it???? (I kid)
Connie! Absolutely in awe of your post and in complete agreement on every count. I've already lost several friends this way and have experienced it myself but like you said, you learn and adjust. What a well framed, thoughtful, no BS piece!
Larry, I feel for you. Please, even if you don't want to post you can still PM, do your status, comment, etc. We'd be sorry to see you leave completely but will support any decision you need to make. Congratulations on day 15, my friend!
That was a real nice note...I was told by someone here, that has alot of time behind him..We can not save them all..I know when I got here I was a reck..Although I had 3 months in I was out there...I followed and read the things that people like you guys and I learned alot. I still come on to learn and listen with my eyes..I have learned not only about the drugs but also the big words some of you use...I have a Dictionary right by my side..I am feeling young again and paying attention to the English Class. So you people on here are now my Teachers....lol
You know......I truly DO understand what you are saying about not participating in this particular forum...many of us have made that decision at one point or another....and some return....others never do. We are made up of so many diff ages, stages, belief systems, past experiences, etc. And because of that, the "way" we respond and what we are equipped to "pull from" inside of our hearts varies GREATLY. It would only make sense that we could offend another, be misunderstood, or get our feelings hurt. It's what we DO with that experience AS we recover though. We all have an innate need to be accepted and loved......and in my way of thinking that particular need never changes.
It's just that some peeps choose to go "other" places for that love and acceptance or they "add to" the places they feel loved and accepted.
And even those places may not remain constant during our learning process.
Others get hurt, feel misunderstood, have a riff w/a particular forum member and disappear forever. Guess I'm saying this forum is a "growing process", too. Learning WHAT to say, IF you should say it, HOW you should say it, WHEN to say it......it's frankly a lot of work when your brain is opiate saturated and in a major healing mode.
Some are still "under the influence" when posting, some are in the first days of a hellish detox, some are feeling their feelings for the first time in a very LONG time so those feelings are raw.....maybe extreme....new to them for the first time in a VERY long time...so we can't type and respond PERFECTLY to each and every person. It's just not a realistic expectation imo.
It is true that when we see another addict lying to themselves and doing the very things we used to do.....it cause us to rise up inside and want to say something to prevent them from making the same painful mistakes we had to make. We sometimes want to prevent, or rescue......or point out the addictive thinking (stinkin thinkin) that we are so readily able to see.
But the reality of this disease is.......the lessons must be learned in a different way and in a different order for some of us. Very few just "hear" what has happened to another addict and decide, "hey, that absolutely WILL not happened to me!"....they have to fail and learn in their own ways.
It's like walking a tight rope some times......if your are bold or honest......POW......your post may get yanked......if your post offends another forum member and they report you....POW.....your post gets yanked.....it's really is a lot of work if your brain is as screwed up as mine is.
Another thing I've noticed is if you are the kind of person that "calls bs" when you see it (and maybe not always in the best way with your choice of words) you are probably the type of person that needs others to call YOU bolding and bluntly on your OWN bs. I'm like that....even tho my heart is tender and loving.....I'm outspoken and HATE deceit......what I personally need from others is for them to be BOLD and direct with me.
Now, there are others that would absolutely disintegrate on the floor if you were direct and called them on their bs. They may need a more gentle, sofe shoed, ease into it, type approach. And those peeps are more than likely the ones that are that way with others on here. I cannot sugar coat or play games with my addiction....I GOTTA hear and WANNA hear the baldfaced truth....for real.....it WILL kill me if I don't hear it "straight" .
My long, typically drawn out explanations are a real "yawner" for some.
That's ok. If we were all a like.......the world would be a very boring place.
Somebody, somewhere needs to hear your heart and your experience, strength and hope, Larry. If you need to back off, regroup, take a break....that would be TOTALLY understandable.....but I will miss you~
I'm gonna end with a dittie (yep, I'm addicted to quotes) that I like....maybe you will, too......
"If you work really hard.....and you're kind....amazing things will happen".
Blessings and love to you, Larry~
ditto to SmilingBright :) hope you get some rest my friend....we will be here when you get back.
Are u kidding. You are not negative my friend. U have a wealth of information!!!! We love u
Thank you Annie and thank all of you for this thread. I wanted to let everyone know how much they mean to me. I honestly cannot put into words what this forum has done for me and I also cannot imagine where I would be rightt now had I not found it.
I regret to say that I may be causing more harm than good so I am going to leave the addiction forum. I do not want to be the reason for any negativity on here and I have already started some. I will be on here though on the mood disorder forums and I will keep in touch with my friends that I have made on here.
Message me anytime and let me know if you need anything. I will always be on this site.....
Love you guys and gals
Congrats larry,
Keep up the amazing work!!! Must feel great all the clean time!!! Remember as Master Ugway says on "kung fu panda" ... Yesterday was the past, tomorrow is the future, today is a gift. Thats why they call it the PRESENT!!!! Keep looking forward!!! We got faith in u!!!
All the best ..... Emmah
Congrats Larry on your clean time. You are doing awesome. Keep up the good work.
Way to go on your clean time!! Hold that sacred, your life depends on it~
Citizenship in "sobrietonia" huh? hahaha! You're a hoot.....Happy 14 Days 2 WEEKS Larry!!!
Wow with all the knowledge you have on here.. You are doing soooo good..You got it guy..I am sooo proud of you...lol
Way to go Bubs!!! Congrats!!
Two weeks way to go!
Your doing great, you can do this.
What' a great way to celebrate Easter weekend
You go bud!!
Peace
Lesa